I'm scared that next week will be the week that I find out my mom has cancer again. You'd think by now I would feel prepared for this, but somehow each time she tells me she has to have a biopsy her words penetrate right through my been-there/done-that forcefield.

SO Gina was really excited to go to Oregon to visit Morgan and Justin next month. She finallyyy talked to Justin and we decided which weekend she should come, so she texted Morgan to tell her. "Ok so i officially hate justin...I'm coming the 8-11 but I'll have a fake by then anyways. I'll email you the info later,"  Gina said. Three minutes later ( Read more... )

"I don't know what a good year feels like. I've never had a year without cancer, or divorce, or death, or depression, or family fights. All i'm asking is that the ups be better than the downs. Please?"
January 2, 2006


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2006. This was by far the hardest, but best, year of my life.

It is sickening to know that even through the tears, teenagers are able to take notice of an underlying lesson that some adults can still apparently overlook. On December 3rd, news of a tragedy swept through the grapevine of Beverly Hills. This giant game of “telephone” caused to a tremendous amount of rumors; however, no matter how the story was ( Read more... )

As we stood at the park holding hands in a circle, my neighbor and first friend when I moved into Beverly Hills looked at the little girls playing AYSO soccer on the field behind us. He said to me, “You know you used to be them?”

At that moment I really did want to be them. I wanted to be nine years old again; running around in my miniature pink ( Read more... )

Even if we never talked again, the way he made me feel that day is something I can't ever forget.
He made the safe choice seem stupid, and the stupid choice 100% safe.

I wont forget when we were stranded on the mountain that night, and he kept telling me that that was the worst situation that he'd ever been in. But I kept telling him that I trusted ( Read more... )

I'm really fuckin bored. I'm SO sick of the same parties over and over and over, the same people standing around drunk and annoying.
And driving down Sunset made me realize how much I can't wait to be far far away, where Hollywood is still a dream.

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i'm so bored.

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i don't think i could be any more upset right now that i'm not captain. i really don't know if i'll play this year.