This journal is filled with mostly negative things. It’s where I come to vent my most private thoughts and fears, because I don’t trust anyone to keep my secrets anymore. I just don’t after Adam, still to this day I have some things about my marriage in a box that is left to be unpacked. But that’s not what this post is about. This is about happier ( Read more... )

I feel so conflicted right now. I’ve been talking to a nice guy named Adrie for about 3 months now. We still haven’t met in person, I know this is partly due to the pandemic but now I’m starting to wonder if he’s just dragging me along. We had a date set and then he got the corona virus but he recovered and we were supposed to get together tonight ( Read more... )

I hate you, you suck.
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Welcome to 2020! I feel super weird about a guy right now. He lives in Oregon and I somehow in just a few weeks got attached to him. Now I’m pretty sure I’ve been ghosted, again. He could have broken his phone for the second time in a week but that’s more unlikely and I have literally no way to verify anything besides stalking him on Instagram 🤦🏻‍♀ ( Read more... )

I have known for a while but I just haven’t committed it to paper till now I hate the body I have.
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It’s almost the end of the year.
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Today was a great day.
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I’m not sure where to start.
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His name is David Rhea.
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Sometimes I don’t feel the loneliness much, sometimes it just exists with me, other times it’s a crushing weight that steals my breath and makes me feel utterly hopeless.
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