Who likes to start a day getting woken up and bitched at, then continually through out the day, oh wait, and into the night. Yanno, I've made mistakes in my life, trust me this is far from where I want to be right now. I can take a lot but goddamn right now it feels like it's me vs. the world, and there is just no fucking way I can win that. So ( Read more... )

So I sat outside and enjoyed the cool night breeze. It's a proven fact that smell is directly linked to memory. In the air I smell old times, and I can't help but to think about them, even if I don't want to. I miss happy times, very much so. I miss sitting on the swing at night and watching the stars with her, I miss laying in bed with her. I ( Read more... )

Yanno, more and more often I find myself losing faith in the human race. I used to have a pretty good grip on understanding people, and why they do what they do. Or being able to figure out if someone was going to do something stupid or juvenile. Maybe I've just been shut off to long, I dunno. Lately people that I really care about seem to just ( Read more... )

Blah, it's been a few days since I wrote anything and I just don't know what to say. I'm not in a good mood at all. I'm gonna end up with 2 years of probation and in all about $2,000 in fines over that time for fucking defending myself because my wife is fucking psycho. I have had my son with me since saturday, cause supposedly Angie had her ( Read more... )

Every single day I find that I'm more amazed by people and how they can be. I'm flirtatious by nature, I'm blunt, and I'm to the point. I don't play games I don't see the fucking point. When I was told today, to not "flirt" with someone, because they were important to someone else, I think I was offended. I got defensive about it, and told them ( Read more... )

So at about 3:45 my son woke up screaming.. I go to his room and check on him, change his diaper and lay him back down.. I leave the room and he screams.. So I get him up and sit down in the rocking chair, and cover him up and rock him and sing him back to sleep. There he is, laying in my arms, holding me and I find myself in tears. Since my wife ( Read more... )

I'm tired of it.. I'm tired of being lied to, I'm tired of being used, I'm tired of being the nice guy that gets walked all over because I want to believe that people are good. This shit gets fucking old. Three very simple words that have more meaning than any others in the entire langauge, are to often said with no meaning, and I'm fucking tired ( Read more... )

fuck it ( Read more... )

“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me ( Read more... )

so what do you do, when someone offers you information on one you love and hate at the sametime? Do you take it, knowing how much it's going to hurt, or say forget it, it doesn't matter anymore, I don't want to know. Why put yourself through the pain of knowing when it's going to be denied, and you don't know if what you're hearing is true. Why ( Read more... )