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well I'm alive and well still. My meds just got adjusted, they lowered my dosage of depakote, but I take it twice a day instead of once, so in all I'm at 80mg a day now, the cymbalta(anti-depressant) stayed the same. I'm waiting very anxiously till monday to hear back about a job up in dallas, which I would LOVE to have, good pay, a company I've ( Read more... )

isn't is amazing how some people just are not in touch with reality at all? You call them liars and they ask you how you can say such mean things, then they look you in the eye and lie to you, knowing you know it's a lie? I guess I'm out of touch and just don't understand people anymore, maybe she's just mental. I'm leaning more towards the ( Read more... )

so I just got off the phone with the fucking idiot I had married. she wants to yell and scream at me for acting like a child, but last time I checked, did I call her and yell and then hang up on her, and not answer her calls? do I avoid her 24-7 and then surround myself with people who only tell me what I want to hear? I talk to her and I just ( Read more... )

yes it's just another day, and I'm still alive. Lots of new things have occured to me lately. Lots of new things in my life. Lets start with the good stuff huh. Well I am not the lead singer for a rock band, we have 4 tracks, and should have vocals added to them this week, so hit me up if you want to hear us. I'm making some good friends, good ( Read more... )

how do you fall out of love? how do you lose the connection you used to have? it doesn't just disappear overnight. I love her, god how I love her, and I'm still very much in love with her. I want more than anything to work things out, but more and more every day we are apart it seems it's getting worse and I don't know what to do.. I can't live ( Read more... )

so I went to the doctor today, and took my son. Turns out his rash is Eczema, not so good, we got cream to treat it with, which is good. I got new meds today, an anti-depressant and a mood stabalizer. Lord knows I could use em. I've been fighting my depression, but no more, I'm going to beat it. Turns out that I am borderline bi-polar, which ( Read more... )

It's 4 almost 5am now, and I can't sleep again. So I turned to my oldest friend, one that has been with me for all my life, and I thought I lost. My pen and paper, and I wrote. Not poetic, not words, the truth, feelings, most importantly though, I wrote me. I wrote to my wife, the woman I love more than anything in the world, my everything, ( Read more... )

so tell me. when is enough enough? when do you say I just can't do it anymore. I know she loves me, but she needs help. I can't make this work on my own anymore. She said she would get help if I would go with her, I said fine. Trust me, it's not like it would hurt any. But, how the fuck am I supposed to deal with the woman I love one night, ( Read more... )

how am I supposed to go on? how am I supposed to not believe what I've been told. When everything she's been doing for 4yrs now is shady, with so many lies. How can I know what's truth and what's not. I don't want to believe she's a cruel, cold, and hard as she seems and appears. I love her with all my heart, god how I wish I could hate her, it ( Read more... )