things are bland mundane even the most exciting things fail to get me excited too afraid of being sexual i think i've lost my sex drive for good now also tired. sick sick sick of cliques and groups especially in wellness want to be close but the closest friend i have here i've been underappreciating lately and things have grown a little stale. ( Read more... )

so I got to bed early last night, slept in til 9, went to csw, found serena and deanna and gave them excellent henna tattoos (that looked like poop they said), talked with deanna about brown which made me feel better about wilson (maybe all college is easy and stupid and frustrating and we're all just too cool for school. ps. serena, as much as ( Read more... )

( inspired by other people's publicly posting their resolutions, i've decided to post a few of my own. )

i dreamt that ( Read more... )

my parents were pissed at me last night because i forgot to call them back to tell them i wasn't stranded in boston anymore (so my mom panicked), and then I forgot to tell them i wasn't coming home on the train I said I would be (so she drove through bad weather and waited at the station for some time and I didn't show) and worst of all I forgot I' ( Read more... )

i was bored and browsing some totally random online indie clothing catalog and all of a sudden this silver tree necklace popped up and i've seen it on some one before but i can't remember who but it seems very important who i remember who this person was.
coincidence?

so since i'm obviously in a gushy, posting mood over break, i figure i'll continue the trend ( Read more... )

arg ( Read more... )

so i haven't cried since I've been in college.

actually, I don't think I cried at all this past summer.

When was the last time I cried?

Good lord, is something wrong with me?

I want to cry, dammit, even if I have nothing to cry about. It would feel good.

I really like him but all good feeling long ago has become stale with fear and the fact that i could never be like the friends that surround him and they're all this clique anyway and act so secretive and liberated why can't i stop thinking about him argggggggg i need to turn off my mind ( Read more... )