"If I say 'You know' should be enough. Please, the number."

well fuck you. you should have some sense enough not to act so damn arrogant when asking for help. especially from a person you haven't really talked to as in truly talked to without any other motives, for almost three years.

i'm reading the catcher in the rye right now. is it just me or is this like the favorite book of young guys who aren't really into reading? anyways, i'm not even halfway through it but so far i like it. i like the conversationality of it. like this holden guy is sitting in a great big armchair next to me in front of a fireplace casually telling me ( Read more... )

it's not like i've been this way from the start. believe it or not, but there was a time when i didn't hold such a pessimistic view of life. but i'm a rational, logical person. i didn't turn out this way without reason. maybe growing up does this to people. it slowly kills the innocent hope that lives in our little child-selves ( Read more... )

all i need is understanding
maybe even a little
empathy
all i get
are people
who keep breaking me
down.

i guess its my fault
for asking
for too much.

it makes no sense
to be crying
in frustration
while watching
a very enjoyable
cirque du soleil show.

やっぱりね。
[:

last night i dreamt ( Read more... )

as if i should have had any doubts.

がっかりさせないことに自分の幸せを探す。that's the secret.

knee-deep in muddy water
struggling to get out
only to sink further
a voice thick as smoke
rises to where i can't reach
they can't hear
the triumphant squishing sound
closing around my ankles

そう言ったけどどうしてまだいつも悲しいの？

Song

The weight of the world
is love.
Under the burden
of solitude,
under the burden
of dissatisfaction

the weight,
the weight we carry
is love.

Who can deny?
in dreams
it touches
the body,
in thought
constructs
a miracle,
in imagination
anguishes
till born
in human--

looks out of the heart
burning with purity--
for the burden of life
is love,

but we carry the weight
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