My mum called a few days ago. I was surprised, but so happy that she did. She got to Canada okay and appears to be okay too. That makes me feel relieved, because I was worried that she might not be able to handle living there. She says she thinks the house is haunted though, which I could believe. Maybe it's Papa(grandfather) in the house, looking ( Read more... )

So here I am. Been living here for almost two months now. I hate to admit it, but I'm not happy here. Sure, it's nice to be living with the man I love, but not when it's with his mother and autistic fat-fuck of a brother. His mother goes through these moods. One minute she's pleasant, and the next she's bitchy towards Rob. She saw that we had ( Read more... )

I moved in with Rob three weeks ago. It still feels like only a visit, but I know it's not. I already miss my old home, my friends, my shitty town. There are days when it's okay, but there are days when me and Rob gripe at one another. I guess that's to be expected. I have yet to start doing what I need to do in order to either get on SSI or to at ( Read more... )

I'm moving in with Rob pretty soon, as in the weekend after this one. It's going to be hectic, as his mother will not allow me to bring furniture. She's weird like that, but we will be bringing my bed and saying that we "brought a bed" so at least we can sleep comfortably. All of my possessions seem to fit in two large cedar chests, two backpacks ( Read more... )

I'm sort of engaged. Meaning when asked if I would marry Rob some time in the future, I said yes. He brought me a ring for 100 dollars, that is simple and more of a stand-in until a more suitable ring is brought. I feel weird about the whole "engaged" thing, but at the same time it feels right. So in the past two weeks, we went to this clothing ( Read more... )

well, my bday was on sunday. i just got home from long island. i met a lovely gentleman on plentyoffish.com and finally met him on my bday. we went around the city, went into a comic shop, then walked a lot of places. we went into the ToysRUs and saw a dinosaur in there that was just awesome! then we went on this oddly placed red glowing steps. ( Read more... )

i guess i really am as worthless as i feel. no one fucking wants me. it's like i'm cursed or something. everytime i think i've found someone who will stick around and like me, they turn tail. what the fuck have i done to be thrown aside like this over and over? is it because i'm ugly, fat, or is it something more than this? all i want is to be able ( Read more... )

it's been one month since i got with George. i wish i could see him more, but what can ya do? it's been a good month so that makes me happy-like. i enjoy the random myspace messages he sends me and i enjoy reading his writing and browsing through his deviantart page. finally someone who is artistic and an intelligent writer. someone who is on my ( Read more... )

my dad did apologize to me for what he said, only after my mom chewed him out. i don't know if he meant it or not, but i really could care less....

i feel like my own father hates me. he probably wishes i would just kill myself already.....and no, i don't think i'm overreacting. any father who calls their daughter a bitch for drinking two bottles of green tea, and any father who looks at their child with a deep anger, obviously hates that daughter. i would oblige him, if i didn't have things ( Read more... )