Another update on me. i'm almost down to the weight i was at about 2 years ago, before i got fat and gross looking......i'm in a new relationship and i'm taking it one step at a time. his name is George, he's 27 and he's sexy as all hell. He's one of the few short-haired dudes i've dated, but i'm happy he has SOME hair i can pull ;-). before our ( Read more... )

yea. chris broke up with me last week......but i have a date on wednesday. wish me luck.

i guess i owe this to people who have no clue if i'm even alive these days. new boyfriend named chris. i'm taking it slow like mollasses, cuz i don't need another heartbreak. i'm slowly, but surely getting back to my thinness.....if only it would go faster so i can wear my sexy clothes again. on thyroid meds....need to find out if my incompatent ( Read more... )

well, since my last entry, i've found that i have moved on from ernie. maybe i thought i was falling for him, but now i see that i probably wasn't. if he wasn't willing to put his all into the relationship, how fair would it have been to me to continue? anywho, i have a date on halloween with a young man named Chris. we're going to the city for the ( Read more... )

ernie and i broke up. i should have seen it coming. no one ever sticks around long anymore. am i cursed or something? what did i do to deserve so many heartaches? i can't take this shit anymore. i really don't think i can. all i want is a guy who accepts me for who i am, for what i am. i always tell those i date what i'm all about beforehand and ( Read more... )

things are going in so many different directions. i feel like i'm being pulled apart, kind of like that torture method where the condemned's limbs are tied to four horses and the horses are convinced to run in four separate directions. i wish i could escape. my relationship with ernie is going well and i feel like i might be falling for him. i wish ( Read more... )

my brother threatened to kill me last night while drunk. he accused me of stealing something that i didn't. then he apologised and got all depressed. i hate it when he does that. i really do. i locked my door until he came and apologized. i'm so glad i'm not that way when i'm drunk.

saw brett micheals at the civic center on friday. he was pretty good. the band that opened for the show was better. if you haven't heard of the band Downfire, do check them out. they're really good.

last night i had a nightmare. Casper was in it, and he somehow showed up in my area, and he was violent towards me. i couldn't get away from him, then towards the end of the dream, we started fooling around. i don't get it. why would i be dreaming of my ex, the one who broke my heart? why would i want to fool around with him? dreams are rather ( Read more... )

2 glorious months with ernie. and a new year to get my fat ass back in shape. that is all.