ernie and i have been together for a month. time goes by rather fast, don't it? i couldn't be happier though. it's good to finally find someone who wants me for me and someone who likes to cuddle and kiss in public. i just found out today that my therapist left the practice. i no longer have a therapist. it's a bit sad, cuz i've had mike as my ( Read more... )

turkey day was decent. i didn't pig out too badly. the best part, was that ernie came over after he was done working. it made me feel happy, and even more happy cuz he got to meet my rents and my uncle. me and ernie have been together for a little over 2 weeks....it will be 3 weeks on saturday. i can't believe it's gonna be one month so soon. i'm ( Read more... )

i think that i was meant to be with a metalhead. i really do. i haven't had good luck being with another goth. so yea, his name is ernie. he's older, he's affectionate, he's hot, he's just.......i dunno. i'm feeling good. we waited a good three weeks to meet and i'm glad we did. we know a lot about each other and we click so well. i get to spend ( Read more... )

what the fuck is wrong with me? why can't i 'bag' a guy for once? the guys i find myself with always turn tail and leave me feeling like the biggest loser and the biggest idiot on the planet. ryan doesn't want me because 'he enjoys his freedom too much'......since when is a relationship a life sentence?! starting to think that it's because i've ( Read more... )

hm, well ryan hasn't returned my two calls. he emailed me on monday, but that was it. i'm sure he's just busy with his house and work and other issues, but it would be nice to get a phone call or an email. i'm trying not to assume the worst, but it's hard not to. my 'batting average' with the opposite sex has been anything but remarkable this year ( Read more... )

so yea, i saw ryan last night and this morning when i woke up, after a night of drinking absolute and smirnoff.....never again. the drinking of absolute and smirnoff that is. i blacked out at some points in the night, but it was still quite the evening. ryan was dressed to the nines, in fetish wear and makeup. he looked pretty sexy, but i prefer ( Read more... )

yea....my dating life has been frazzled up, but i'm pushing on like a trooper. there's someone else from gothicmatch who is interested in me. his name is ryan and i swear to you, he looks like a muscular version of marilyn manson, but not the modern manson. when his band was known as Marilyn Manson And The Spooky Kids. the long haired non-makeup ( Read more... )

now all of a sudden john wants to "date" before getting into a relationship. that's why he's been ignoring me. why the fuck does this shit always happen? i'm not moving fast and it's not like i'm asking him to marry me! i just want to get out of this single slump and be happy for once. is that so much to ask? can't help but think 'is it because i'm ( Read more... )

so yea, i thought i was spending the weekend with John.....seems i was wrong. he hasn't called me back, nor has he read the messages i sent him via myspace. probably just overanalyzing. i'm pissed, but also worried at the same time. i hope nothing's happened to him. i've been so irritable today....and a bit horny.....which makes me more irritable ( Read more... )

yup, i spent the weekend with J.P. and it was extremely enjoyable. he cooked for me, and a guy that can cook is always a plus, only i hope he doesn't fatten me up. lol. the only downside was the unexpected visit of the Red Bitch. so no sex :(. ah well, there will be plenty of that for this upcoming weekend. i enjoy being with J.P. and i'm ( Read more... )