Had an awesome afternoon yesterday hanging out with one of my girlfriends, who I haven’t seen in like two months… See that is something that my mother could never understand. She even text messaged the other day to tell me that a house was for sale down the road from her. She doesn’t understand that I am not here solely because of Patrick (don’t ( Read more... )

It will never stop amazing me how much power the dead have over the living. For some, it is simply the memories of the deceased that compel them to become withdrawn or to become an advocate of some type. For others, it is the final requests of the deceased that leave those living in pain. In my grandmother’s case, it is the latter. I can ( Read more... )

As you are well aware, my grandmother has been terminally ill for some time now. My mom went out to Ohio to check on things/help out last Wednesday, she was supposed to be home within 3 days, it’s been almost a week. When she got out there, she realized how poorly my grandmother was doing and mom guessed grandma wouldn’t make it until September ( Read more... )

I’m helping my mom make up posters for Danny’s graduation party this weekend and as I look at all of the photographs my mind begins to wander. I start to think about Brenden and all that he missed out on after his death… I think about all the things we missed out on by not having him with us anymore. It’s weird to look at all these photographs ( Read more... )

I can’t believe how lucky I am. I still look down every day in astonishment at my finger. I can’t believe how incredibly blessed I am to have such a wonderful man in my life. He can read me like a book, he knows all those weird little quirks I have - all these “things” as I call them - and despite them all he still loves me for me. I don’t know ( Read more... )

Although I’m not old, you would think at my age (27) I would have things a little more put together than I currently do… this just isn’t the case. I’m kind of a mess at times. My biggest dilemma is currently my conflicting bits of having too many jobs, which will quickly be followed by no employment. Let me elaborate. You see I currently work 2 ( Read more... )

Sometimes on the way to a dream, you get lost and find a better one.

For those of you who have never read “The Ultimate Gift” by Jim Stovell, you need to. It will change the way you look at life. For those who say I don’t read, I call bullshit ( Read more... )

We took a road trip out to see Grandma this weekend. I feel so blessed to have Patrick in my life; honestly I think this weekend would have been a repeat of the last time if it hadn’t been for him. I was already crying on my way up to meet Patrick, so I thought for sure I would loose all will-power and break down over the weekend. Instead, it ( Read more... )

As sad as this song is, it’s still one of my favorites… I get too sentimental when I drink ( Read more... )