Why am I scared to go places w/ people again? Why am I closing myself off? I can't hold conversations anymore. This weekend wasn't fun because I can't get comfortable enough to have fun. I enjoy pain again. This sounds so creepily familiar. Either my meds don't work anymore, or i need new ones...cuz I feel like i'm going crazy again.

I miss Kenny

I was wigging out last night...don't entirely know why, although caffeine might have a part in that. But i was seriously flipping out and I felt so self conscious and hyper and fuckin stupid. It was really weird. Then tonight at dinner I seriously had to pretend to be happy that I was there. It was like before meds...when I had to observe what ( Read more... )

so um today was weird. I had so much caffeine and I was so hyper I would just let out these insane giggles every now and then. I ditched 7th period w/ Cleo and we took a jolly outing to CD city. I wish i had money...i just looked at all the CD's and drooled. I went to therapy after school. First time i've gone in months. I never cry during therapy ( Read more... )

Well many of you will be pleased to know that I quit smoking. a) because it's bad for me(duh) b) because I feel gross after i smoke c) the shallow vanity reasons(nails, hair, teeth etc). Either way, i'm not smoking anymore. And I'll feel better for having done so. Um...yeah that's all.

Boys are so predictable it's disgusting.

Went to CVD tonight with Mel and Ashley. And I had WAY too much fun. Ummmmm, and i found a cute boy who I see every day but didn't realize was cute. Yeah...so it goes. Back on the freedom train unless i hear otherwise. lol, i'm so out of everything, i love it. nite everyone.

i'm over that situation...but apparently 3rd parties who weren't even involved aren't quite over it yet. it's cute, really. lol what the fucking ever.

Whoah...got caught sneaking out last night. First time i've ever been caught. lol woops. and then everyone near and dear to me decides "hey better her ass than mine," and totally fucks me over even moreso than i would have been originally. but hey...no worries. I should've known not to trust them. When will i learn that girls don't give a flying ( Read more... )

Kenny is my fucking hero.

Okay...well I'm going to Venice on Saturday w/ Mel, Ash, Kenny, and maybe some others...and I need opinions from everyone on something.

Should I get my tongue pierced?

Well? well? hmmmm I've wanted to for a very long time...but i still want opinions. Let me know biatches...