in case anyone didn't know yet, i've been in rehab/therapeutic boarding school for the past 3 and a half months. I'll be back probably in July for good. I'm on a home visit right now. I hope everyone's doing fabulous. I'm getting better.

This is the first time I've written an lj post without blocking it since someone ratted me out. But I finally have something to say that I don't mind being open to the public.

I have been clean for one month.

Well I'm back from newport. And yes, it was fun. I finally met sarah and she's awesome and mel and i just kinda chilled it. I broke things off with andrew...whatever "things" were, which is apparently not as much as i thought. Liars bother me ( Read more... )

I got suspended today. For the dumbest reason ever. Gotta love the school system.

Well...something VERY exciting happened today. Something i've been hoping to do for 2 years. And what might that be? I GOT MY TONGUE PIERCED. WOOHOO!!!! Lol, while everyone else was getting their hair and makeup done for prom, I went to venice w/ rach and got my tongue pierced. lol awesome. luckily, i'm one of the few people where it didn't swell ( Read more... )

Okay so I get where guilt is a survival mechanism. It keeps you from doing stupid shit, right? My next and substantially bigger question is, where the fuck is my guilt? Someone was talking about that today...that "everyone feels guilty about SOMEthing." And I weirdly came to the conclusion that i DON'T feel guilty about anything. And if I do, then ( Read more... )

Ummm I'm genuinely concerned about someone. Does that ever happen? Nope. But it's happening. WHOAH, could it be that emily's NOT a cold-hearted bitch??? okay, well maybe i'm still a cold hearted bitch...i just happen to love this person, and i want them to be okay. Please be okay. I really miss you being happy and seeing you smile.

-Em

i really suck at life. lol, the end.

i didn't sleep last night. and when I say i didn't sleep, i mean i was awake when my alarm clock went off...and i was awake straight through the day. my head hurts and my eyes are bloodshot. I have no fun friday night festivities to get me through the day tomorrow because i have to work until 915. I doubt I'll be able to sleep tonight either. can ( Read more... )

Everything feels like a kick to the stomach right now. I'm all fucked up over nothing, and it hurts. I don't know what it is...but something hurts. I feel like I need to be addicted to something all the time. Whether it be a drug, a boy, a knife, whatever...i just need something to distract myself, so it seems. i can't just be alone and not think ( Read more... )