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Tonight, of all nights, why do you have to work late? When Cheryl's away at camp, and I'm just alone at home without anyone/any plans the whole time. And my imagination is crazy and the sounds of the house settling are so scary (I hope it's just the house settling at least).

if i could spend all my money flying you here i would even if it meant not eating for days on end but i cant this fucking sucks

*incoherent babble

Someone found my livejournal the other day, and said 'I guess you must've been pretty happy during the first semester of 2013 because there aren't any posts'. Because I was on my work computer, I went to take a look (without logging in) and saw it was true, and agreed, 'I guess I was'. Because now, looking back, it seems like a pretty happy, ( Read more... )

So, I haven't been here for quite awhile. I guess this space is no longer so much a public blog as it is a space with my thoughts ( Read more... )

Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

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I took all that luck and love for granted; I thought by knowing and acknowledging how lucky I was, it would be forever. Forevers don't last and everything changes and no one and nothing is inexhaustible. 

I've just been sitting here, staring at this blank, white box where I'm supposed to type my post.

And I have nothing to say. Oh, I could talk about how uni's been, or how I've gained weight, or a million trivial, trivial things. But I don't want to. I have so much I'm currently feeling, but it would be so meaningless to write it out. Because it ( Read more... )

My LJ icon holds as true now as it did a few years ago when I downloaded/uploaded it. I wish I didn't care. I wish I could flip off that emotion switch, because sometimes the real world hurts and however much you tell your heart not to care, it does and that sucks. It sucks so fucking much because people will hurt you. And as much as you wish you ( Read more... )