its an uncomfortable feeling to negatively anticipate the loss of an individual whom accompanies your life. I am aware that this is inevitable and is necessary in order for this individual to prolong their existence on this earth.  It is a positive move, although I am so scared to watch her walk away. I feel like I am going to be so alone and blank ( Read more... )

Asphyxiation occupies the entirety of shadows which accompany the night ( Read more... )

Theres this apparition that I withhold deep within my soul, that I can rescue the one's whom are in need of aid. There are points where there is no recuperating from the state in which these people have postured themselves. I believe that this aspect within my attributes will incessantly be a perpetual ambition during my existence on this earth, ( Read more... )

I'd listen to the words he'd say

but in his voice I heard decay

the plastic face forced to portray

all the insides left cold and gray

there is a place that still remains

it eats the fear it eats the pain

the sweetest price he'll have to pay

the day the whole world went away

...And The Picturesque Chere was alone..

I feel like I'm falling into a hole, one that I can not save myself from. I feel alone. I'm left in this cold and damp atmosphere and its as if I am in the commencement stages of pneumonia. I am scratching at my lungs to free the liquid in my lungs, but I'm afraid it's to late for me I'm suffocating from my own actions. I scream on the top of my ( Read more... )

So things have been crazy for the past week. the first semester is ending and I think I got an a- in my classes. I think thats way better then what I used to get. for the next two classes that I will be taking im gonna try alot harder and try to get an a in both classes. I may be getting a promotion in my store and im really excited about this ( Read more... )

Some say Best friends are forever I say it's all fucking bullshit or maybe I just never had a true best friend. I say My girlfriend my fucking best friend and she doesn't care about the one fucking story that I wanna tell. So heres the story I have been best friends with a girl for a very long time since elementry school. We became really best ( Read more... )

Down with a world in which the guarantee that we will not die from startvation has been purchased with the guarntee that we will die of boredom
-Situationist graffiti
Paris 1968

Everything seems so dull today. I cant wait to go to work. It gives my day meaning. I wish i had more of a meaningful job. When I'm done with school is all i hear, I JUST STARTED! I wanna scream it i feellike nobody gets it like i can scream everything that i really wanna say and it still has to be explained. I hate that. i hate explaining ( Read more... )

im so aggrivated. i always thought id be the one to sit there and watch you take this next step in life. Now i'll sit home with the baby and watch it all behind a screen. I feel so angry it makes me feel degrated. i wanna scream. I have to hold back. Control your temper is all i tell myself beacuse i know it can get out of control and out of ( Read more... )