Today I feel distraught. I'm not sure why, either ( Read more... )

For the first time in almost two years, I feel good about who I am dating.

I could get used to smiling when I think about things.

Peace and Love

Since Saturday I've felt like I've been standing on the edge of a cliff, confused on what to do. The rushed feeling of whether I should just let myself fall through the wind, or turn around and walk back down the slope. I know what causes me to feel like this, but I don't. I think its anxiety. I think its the fact that I want to be with her and I ( Read more... )

All those posts were entries I've written by hand in the last few nights...just so you all don't think I went into some crazy writing spree. ;)

I love the ones I trust.

Peace and Love

The lake has never felt so lonely and I've never been so cold.

How could I let her inside?

Because I am a sucker. Bottom line. I'm a fucking sucker. I'm not even fit to be an angel. I can't see well enough. I'm so right in feeling so wrong. Don't you understand thats not what I want? Douglas Adams said it best when one of his characters said "I' ( Read more... )

My life is a fucking traffic light. Always on stop longer than go. Always more cars than wanted in the way of your destination. Yep. A traffic light...except this one goes a mile a minute. Go to stop. Red to green. Hit to miss. Fix to break.Heh. Rainy out today. Almost as if it wasn't thought that whether was correlated with the how you feel at the ( Read more... )

Today is weird. I've had that weird feeling all day. You know, the one where you can't remember if you locked the door or not? Yeah. That feeling. It has led to this sort of half-empty, half-full feeling I'm experiencing now. I think mostly because she's not with me, she's with him. Sealing the deal, right? God. I fucking hope so. I don't need this ( Read more... )

Temptation...yet it almost seems as though that word doesn't give the meaning nearly enough justice. There is always the choice given to individuals whether to choose wrong or right. Which is which? By whose standards can those words live by? The independant variable? The dependant variable...? Or the much more involved outside entities? Although ( Read more... )

I'm so stupid.

If I am so goddamn smart, then why can't I even take advantage of my own advice? Because I'm not smart. I'm not fit to give advice to people that look up to me. In my opinion, people shouldn't look up to me. They won't soon enough. At least I hope ( Read more... )

Ah...and so I rest beneath the grafitti in celebration of my past misfortune once again ( Read more... )