I think I've lost the ability to trust, or even the ability to want to trust anyone. Besides the people that have proven to me that they can be trusted with anything in the world. I know I trust myself. I trust myself not to make stupid decisions and be careful about the ones that I believe are smart. I'm human. I feel just as every other human ( Read more... )

1. Open your music library ( Read more... )

When I'm sober, I do nothing but see your face.

When I'm not, I only see it when I think about it.

I pick number two....over and over.

Peace and Love

To expect anything more than my feelings and heart to be drained by the absolute darkness of the plauging "beauty" of this town would make me an idiot. Once again I have fallen into this common category. Even with the sanctity I feel among my closest friends, my brothers, my other pieces there is always this poison that flows frequnetly in and ( Read more... )

Never Take Friendship Personal.

There's a big part of me missing right now. I don't know what it is or when it dissapeared from me, but it's been in the last few weeks. My confusion is getting the best of me. That is not acceptable. I do not let things get the best of me. Why is this happening? Why have I got no urge to pick up the pieces? Why can't I just say "fuck it" without ( Read more... )

I will never be able to understand the knots, twists, turns, loops, and swirls of my own emotions, feelings, and heart. Hell, I understand others problems so much easier than I understand my own. There is something wrong with that. There is something wrong with me. I don't understand why I'm always just a little too late, or why things happen ( Read more... )

There isn't many things I enjoy in my present life than walking around school in the Fall. The clouds shading the sun just enough to allow the temperature to be completely perfect and go hand-in-hand with the slightly chilling breeze that puts just enough goosebumps down your spine and arms. Refreshing. That's how I feel when I go outside here. I ( Read more... )

My heart jumps.and again.and again. and again ( Read more... )

Fuck. Paradise.