ehh..i almost got arrested last night and i got tossed out of Club Utopia...silly me...dont talk politics in a bar...

gotta new email...
virtualblackbook@yahoo.com

its late or early, not really sure right now...maybe had one too many tonite but i made through town alright. Keep jumpin' back and forth between one thought an' another, might be that girl again, and that want i have on the other hand...maybe im mad that i spent this nite alone, maybe im jealous that she didnt...cant stand it when she says she ( Read more... )

today was my first day back to work after being bitten on the neck by a venomus spider...i prefer the spiders to my client, all day i prayed that another one would drop down off the ceiling and bite me again so i might get more drugs and more time off....but no, didnt happen...after the visit to the Er things improved, the swelling in my neck and ( Read more... )

still alive, barely, feels like i was just smashed by a ton of bricks...every feeling in my body hurts ( Read more... )

went to her door in the rain last nite, it was late, i was drunk and falling apart, i must have looked desperate becasue she took my hand and led me up the stairs to her room where she offered me a towel and a shoulder to cry on...and cry i did, for a good long, while without being able to identify the real source of my grief. Looking at her ( Read more... )

still falling into nothing, trying to catch a break...going crazy over a girl ill be leaving soon...cant stand to think ill be away from her...but still im craving the chage...wish i could take her with me, not realistic, i know, but i care so much for her and she feels so good...torn again....usual shit...
sounds stupid but i think im falling for

wow, its way to soon to be awake...had a dream about that girl, i barely saw her face while i was waking this morning, she smiled at me and i melted back to sleep...why cant she be mine...not fair, im gettin outta here...

God, Its unbeleviable, i just watched the walls swallow the floor and i tried to get outside because they were taking me in, i made it just in time, to catch the last fresh breath of air before i...got sucked back inside to all that insanity...man its all to much for me to take i have these four walls and that girl and everything and everyone is ( Read more... )

no, it wasnt ok, i barely understood it at the time now in overtones of some foreign color i can see thing distorted, like theyre actually supposed to be that way...strange and bueatiful...