these have been a very lonely couple of weeks. i feel like i have nobody to talk to that would understand how i feel at all. for instance, the one person who i normally would talk to about this kind of stuff is the cause of some of these feelings. i feel exactly like i did two years ago. if it keeps going like this and a repeat of what happened ( Read more... )

Today:
-I got an A on my term paper.
-I got accepted into SF State.
-I laughed.
-I picked out a christmas tree with my family.
-I felt like i belonged.

how can someone make me think so much? the other day i was hanging out with a friend who really got me thinking. it wasn't just random thinking either it was like deep meaningful thinking. he made me realize that i actually loved him. i really did, even though he put me through so much shit and treated me like dirt. it was all worth it to have ( Read more... )

i think this is the first time in a really long time that words have completely failed me. halloween truly is a magical night. that sounds really cheesy but i think to an extent it's true.

ohh man have i changed in the last year. about a year ago i went to all of my classes and sat on my front lawn after school with natasha and emily and did our homework. and now look at me....i'm skipping classes everyday and i havent done hw in hella long. it's only the third week of school and i'm already dying.i keep telling myself that it's ( Read more... )

everyone's leaving and i don't like that.i wish everything could stay the same but change is necessary in the process of moving on with our lives. and i think i can accept that, however it still sucks!

where the hell are all the hott guys in alameda??? why can't it be like laguna beach where there are tons of hott guys all over the place. it's like all the hott guys are everywhere but here. and that makes me sad. I NEED HOTT GUYS DAMNIT!!!!!

i wasn't expecting to feel much when you came to say good bye. i wasn't expecting much of anything. i spent the entire morning knowing that this would possibly be the last time that i ever see you. it's a strange feeling....knowing that the end of something is coming. it's a bit like the feeling of impending doom after you find out you're about to ( Read more... )

the only thing i can do now is just let go and no longer care. i thought i was doing the right thing by caring but i realized that the only real thing people care about is themselves. people are selfish assholes that dont give a shit about anyone else. i always thought that there was some good in everyone but now i realize the truth. i'm not gonna ( Read more... )

well it's finally summer and the monotony has already begun. however i have a feeling that some major excitement is on the way. i dont kno what it'll be but i have a feeling that it's gonna be good....