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I have been doing alright lately, except for that fact that my car is starting to die. I've been heavily involved in RHPS stuff and running the cast, as usual. Not much new on that front. I still have like, three cast members that really hate me. I think, though, that I always will, and I'm lucky it's not more ( Read more... )

I miss him.  I really, really miss him even though the last time we were anywhere near what you would call close, I wasn't even a teenager yet.  Did I ever truly make him proud?  Did he ever know how much he saved me and took care of me, when I deserved a hell of a lot less?  He was gone a lot -- on one business trip or another for at least half of ( Read more... )

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It's been about four weeks since I had an emotional breakdown/burst of extreme neediness and depression.  Hormonally, it might be time for another one.  I can feel myself getting jealous and weepy and negative about stupid things and for no reason.  I'm trying a new, more scientific method of notating this feeling here and not going into detail. ( Read more... )

Last night was Bunny Trixie night at the Nuart.  This is the first year I've been partially in charge of it so I was doubly stressed about it.  Which is silly, because 90% of the girls are beautiful and if you get to see them make out and show their boobs, that's more than enough to please an audience.  Even though I weigh the most I've ever ( Read more... )

So, as I can't stop mentioning, I got into a pretty bad car accident on Tuesday. Last night I started noticing my eyes were having a hard time focusing on things, and when I woke up this morning I couldn't see straight for a few minutes. All day I've been having really bad double vision. I think there was only an hour today when I didn't notice it ( Read more... )

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I know, I'm sorry...it's been a very long time since Ms. Correct Spelling gave a lesson in this journal.


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Listening to the High Street Broadcast on KCLU tonight was especially cringeworthy. I wish my confidence wasn't so damn tenuous. In the first song I sang, I can hear my singing voice wobbling as bad as it used to when I'd try out for choir solos in seventh grade. I don't even want to talk about how badly I screwed up the second song, but they ( Read more... )