Today was a pretty good day. Although alot has been bothering me. Something I don't understand is Nathan. Ok, the other day I wrote him a note asking about what kind of poem he wanted me to write for his book that he wants to get published. Well since I thought we were still friends, I told him some things about guys that were bothering me. ( Read more... )

Well I'm recovering from being sick. I don't exactly understand guys anymore. Why is it that they send out mixed signals? I haven't heard from my boyfriend in almost a week and I'm starting to worry. Ok I know I shouldn't worry. But every guy has left me in life. I just don't want another guy leaving me; I want this one to be a serious ( Read more... )

Wow, so much has been happening in my life. I've been worried about things lately to be honest. I recently talked to a friend of mine and I'm worried about him. I feel like I am losing him and that I am to blame for how he has changed. I feel like Buffy when Angel left her and turned bad. My friend hasn't turned bad; but he is definitely ( Read more... )

So much has happened and in so little time. I've been through alot, but the trials I go through are making me stronger. Right now I am working on rebuilding my life. It's not easy I know, but with determination and courage I know I can make it. I have some wonderful friends here in Pensacola who are helping me out. I am now dating a Navy guy ( Read more... )

Ok I first off want to say that the last entry I wrote I did not mean. I was drinking that night to ease some pain and take some pain away. Out of anger I wrote some stuff about Nathan. Although Nathan did bash me in his entry, I do forgive him and Nathan I apologize for what I said. And also I apologize for the comment I left for you :(. I ( Read more... )

It's Thanksgiving today but as it is an American holiday and I'm in England I don't get to celebrate it this year. I remember when I was younger always going to my grandfather's house and all my relatives would be there. It was always so much fun; the women would cook on Thanksgiving; all my step cousins would be there; so many relatives that I ( Read more... )

Ok so my boyfriend puts in his last journal how he loves his xbox and he doesnt even mention me at all like how he's picking me up from the airport tomorrow when it's been 3 weeks. Well even if he's not happy to see me, I'll be happy to see him and can't wait to see him tomorrow. I hate this stupid keyboard on the laptop because it doesnt type ( Read more... )

Today has been a long day. Another argument with Nathan has left me completely heart-broken as he told me he wants to end this relationship :(. I don't want it to end because I am so in love with the guy but I guess I really have no say in this matter. He is right, the arguments we get into are so stupid. I called him at the wrong time tonight ( Read more... )

I think my problem is that I focus to much on my past and all the things my father ever told me. Sometimes I think that I'm only proving him right though. I'm gonna prove my father wrong though. I am going to amount to something in life, I'm gonna get into college, get a degree get my education. I'm not going to let things my dad said to me cuz ( Read more... )

For some reason I am getting so depressed lately. I'm starting to fall into depression again and I am trying to pull myself out of it but to no avail. I heard the song Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne and it made me think of things. There's something wrong with me. It's like I'm starting to have the same attitude in life that my father always had ( Read more... )