I'm not a color, but a shade of gray...

[sexykurumi]

I'm this blob of gray that has never counted for anything. Then one day I thought that I was breaking free, but of course I was wrong. Like always any thing that involves me I'm wrong! I just don't understand...? What good am I if I can't love my self? I'm no good for anyone I'm stupid. I try to use big words, I try to be something other then I am

Comments

[diamondki]

I really love the song. It's so emotional. The lyrics really express a lot.

And I've never seen that rendition of the video before. I like it. It's fitting.

[sexykurumi]

I know it makes it become more intense

[jennydavis131]

Cortney, you are a wonderful person and not a blob of gray nothing. You are something, you have changed. You changed into a wonderful person, I even told you how proud I was of you that one day remember because I am and I told everyone that I was proud of you I told Melanie, my mom even Valerie. I said Cortney has changed so much and shes really coming into her own and really growing up and becoming a great and wonderful person and someone I am proud to say that I am friends with. Some one that I am proud to know. You do feel something you do you just don’t understand what it is yet. You cant put your finger on it. I know that when we are out having fun and even that past few months you have felt great joy and happiness it may not be for a long period of time but for platbacon sake Cortney I could see it on your face and I could feel it in your heart

I'd like the platebacon, please.

[sexykurumi]

Your are a friend I am proud of too. The only one who seems to really care. Bestest of best friends.(BFFF

[jennydavis131]

yeah that song is up my ally cuz love will always be a struggle.

Thank you for being proud of me too and yes bfff, I dont think anyone will ever get the essence of me like you do.

You know I dont know why I am the way that I am other than yeah I am a romantic but I am a very sensitive person. THings just resenate in me for a while. My current situation was more frustrating because it seemed to have more real possibilities and I feel like I was lead on by words that not many people say plus he was in my dreams from almost four years ago. So I wouldnt get down on yourself on your ability to let go so quickly, it shows a lot about who you are, you are not someone to hold grudges (like a cancer) and not live in the past and move on quickly. Its not a bad thing, mine kinda is becuase I let it control me too much and it gets in the way, where as you make way for new things quicker which is good.

[sexykurumi]

This is true I hate holding grudges, because it wasts time that you could be doing something else.

We are friends even though we a diffrent in what we do, but it helps make our friendship better. I can help you to let go of things that you don't need and you help me by holding on to things that I might need later on. Two halfs of a whole when two losers come together they make a winner and thats us. One day with this know how we will figure out boys/men/guys/dudes and life.