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Fuck. Why cant it just be all over? I just want out. I hate feeling like this. I though i was better...But the way that im feeling now is showing me that makey it was just a cover-up. Ive been haveing such bad days. I feel myself, falling backwards. I dont want to. I hate the things that I think of, Its not right. Oh god. and tomorrow i ( Read more... )

Well today was...a day. It went by really fast and that was good. It started snowing during 1st period so a bunch of us went outside at lunch and played for a bit. Then came in and was completley soaked. So that wasnt fun. I dont want to be here. Can you take me away? Please? Just get me out of here. Take all my pain away atlease with ou when ( Read more... )

Well today was crap. Gah im thinking this past week(ish) was just a dream. Because i feel like im failing back into old habbits and i dont want to...I really dont want to. I want to keep going in the right dirction. But its really hard. Gah i just want to cry, and make everything go AWAY. Or atlease make me go away. I really hate this i just ( Read more... )

Well today was crap. One of the worst day in a while. Gawd!! I felt totally sick all day and then everybody ignored me and such during lunch so i just walked around by myself...Then i promised Lauren that i would help with the Nelson Mandela Dinner so i staied and helped, I didnt really know waht i signed myself up for...So i though that i would ( Read more... )

Went to the santa clause parade last night. T'was much fun. It was a bit cold though. And my dad made me walk threw a field and ofcourse i was wearing heals.... That was fun...So today I went to the mall with kelsey that was very uneventful. and Pointless, we didnt buy anything. And we were there for like 3ish hours. Gah. So now im here ( Read more... )

Im so sleepy! gah. So i cleaned my room this morning. Gah why cant we jsust get a maid? lol. So coffee house was erm...intersting. It was kinda boring. I mean there were some good acts but some others were quite repetitive. Meh oh well so somehow i got tricked into performing at holiday hoe down...Now i just have to find a way out. So friday ( Read more... )

Am i really that horible? I didnt think i was but according to my mother i always yell at everybody, and make them feel worst about themselves..So if ive done that to you Im sorry ( Read more... )

Today was great. Havent been abel to say that in a while. Had my debate in french class this morning we lost but i did all the work so i dont care, i rocked. lol. Computer class was un-eventful as usual, erm didnt do anything at lunch. Sci class was amusing, i went and sat infront of charles so i could see the board and i ended up sitting there ( Read more... )

Wow...Today was a total emotional rollercoaster...I cant really remember waht happened at school cept' the whole "anit-bullying" workshop taht i did with del, lynn, and caitlyn. It ackualy went really well. So that was last class, so after last class I had an LSI meeting, but before that i had to go to SS for the de-brief. So mrs.bennett after ( Read more... )