Well so the last few days have been up and down...Spent most of the past 3 days with my friends aka:Heather. lol. So this weekend we have the craft sale that was erm.. intersting, We were under staffed on saturday, and over staffed today. Gawd. So there was tons of work to do. And Lauren and Matt got chosen to be in charge for the next 2 years ( Read more... )

Wow. Ive felt like crying since i got home. I mean i get tears in my eyes but i try to push them away...I dont want to cry anymore. I hate crying, cause it leads to other things. Well so i talked to "him"...That didn't go over too well. I hate fucking things up. EVERYTHING I'm involved in turns out fucked up. AH. I just want everything to be ( Read more... )

Well i made it home...Not sure if thats a good thing...Today was crap...One of the worst days in a while...Im trying not to let any tears drop from my eyes buts its hard to keep them in...And today wasnt taht bad its just everything came up today. I was just thankful that i had my study group with Mr.Bonell, cause if i had to been with everybody i ( Read more... )

So if Lauren, Heather and Jenn would look at my display pic:D thats the one i was talking about after school...Only P-Unit will get it. lol oh the grand times ( Read more... )

Everythings spinning out of control...Im loosing grip of everything...I wish things were the way they use to be...Me, Happy. Not forcing these "smiles" and Not making up lies so people don't assum somethings wrong...But there are so many things that are. Espically whenever you say all that shit about me. Everything, and everytime you say the ( Read more... )

So well this morning was crap. Lunch was a bit better...Jeff made it good. He gave me a hug..:)That made me happy. So Matt, Jenn, Heather, Lauren(I think) Kelsey steph and i are doing a dance to 'all that jazz' next week. That shall be grand. This after-noon was ish...History was boring as usual, and we have a sub all week for sci, he couldnt ( Read more... )

Well..Today was crap...What day isnt though? Well there was one good part of my day. Well i got chosen to do an anit-bullying workshop for the grade 9s. So its me and Del and another girl in our group. And i was having a horible day. And then Del just got me a chair. And it was just what i needed, someone thinking of me..Like being sweet. ( Read more... )

When ever i see you too together, I know i've made a mistake. You don't have to tell me i did. I just want everything to be over. For me to be gone. I can't wait...Gah. Feeling so numb right now. Everything is just going past. Like I cant't make any decissions for myself. Not fun. Its not helping my sisuation anyway. I don't want to be ( Read more... )

Wow. I feel really weird. I feel really dizzy. But its just a bit..Im not sure what it is. I feel like im going to pass out though. Its weird.Gah now im trying to collects thoughts to write here, and its quite hard. OK. So didn't do anything today. Steph left at 10 i think...Then Heather and Kelsey stayed till like 1:30. From then on sat ( Read more... )

Heather, Kelsey and Steph are over. Mostly cause my fucking travel and tourism was canceled. Stupid fuckers. So now my dad is making up to me. Cept the whole fact that my dad is out with gerofs dad, DRINKING. Oh Gawd, thats not a good combination. And he still isnt home. Gah. Kinda scared, Don't know where he is..He will make it home though ( Read more... )