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Down as dirt
At this very moment I recall the torment
Of being the fat girl out of the perfect skinny ones. And I ask myself what did I ever do to deserve this. I thought feeling ugly was lost but I guess it never really left me. Always gonna be that fucking ugly fat ass that nobody loves.
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Thoughts
They've made me cry
They've made me doubt
They've made me jealous
They've made me cautious
They've made me angry
They've made me jealous
But they have never been there
When skys were dark
When blood was cold
When the organ broke
But
I remember you
Crying with me
And fixing me
I'll remember you
Always
For you were my everything
When I was alone
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Ugly
Today I look at myself in the mirror and I see nothing but a disgusting fat girl trying to look skinny but failing oh so terribly. Sigh. I think I might actually start working out.... I just might. Might.
On a side note, I doubt i can keep my word about blogging so I might as well do little emotional posts here. Today is also Chinese lunar new ( Read more... ) -
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Maybe some wouldn't diagnose it as a problem,but I keep struggling.
My weight has been fluctuating. What I see in the mirror is comparable and what you see in the toilet. I feel ugly, horrible and I feel like I am an unattractive piece of crap. Eating three meals a day within 3 hours, stuffing my face with carbs carbs and fats and oil. To make ( Read more... ) -
Just a random update!
I haven't updated in a while. So I thought I blog from my phone! Thank god for an iPhone.
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Just my thoughts
Sometimes I think I'm a fish. Or I'd like to be a mermaid. My idea of relaxation is being in a infinite pool of aquamarine, blue-green ocean with the water just below my neck. The temperature is warm. Not too cold and not too hot. The light from the sun glistening through the leaves that shelter me. The water will shine like diamonds reflecting the ( Read more... ) -
Just a short post
Hii I thought it would be good if I just post abit here and there. So today went by pretty fast! Signed up for my new school which starts in approx 9hours. So nervous yet excited! I was left in the car so I tried experimenting w some apps...look @ how the app made me look gross and like I'm eating myself :( hahaha
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GETTING BACK ON TRACK.....
just uploaded a selling post so I thought maybe i shall i blog a little.... It's morning already and im not asleep. Screwed up my body clock yesterday but it was so worth it. Yesterday was Jaime's birthday partayeee!
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