My life is just screwy right now....I manage to keep ME happy, but im sry everyone else i can't help how u feel.... it's just not my problem... go on with ur bad self!

 Hope, it's what drags me along.  A hope that the change process won't hurt so bad... is it wrong that i tell him i love him? ... i don't think so, i do still love him, i just don't want to ever be in a relationship like this ever again.  He was a good friend, at one point, ... now we are not. god only knows when i'll be able to end it i can not ( Read more... )

Oh.. ithink i'm falling out of my current relationhip, guess thats worth mentioning.

 At Work, Been  while, 
Stressed..... this adminiatration shit is sorta a bitch....  I rely almost solely on the intelligence of other people, in order to do my job correctly.... Thats about all there is to say, cuz almost everyone i work with is daft!!!

I'm getting myself back whatever it takes
I'm choosing to live the way i was ment to 
I can only be free, by climbing into myself, picking myself apart, 
Knowing myself
Learning to love me for me, 
Before i can learn to love all those around me
Before i can feel safe enough to give love and accept it back
I have my means,
The actions come slowly 
Surely ( Read more... )

well life has changed a lot it's been a year, i miss the old times but i still make it through, josh loves me and it's been almost a year since i spoke with joseph. i think he hates me, i never ment to hurt him but the fighting just wouldn't stop, i was falling back into depression, and i felt like i was holding him back from succeeding. still in ( Read more... )

finally got that crap out of my hand today...as soon as i got in my door i ran for the shower..... yay i was capable of using two hands, theni went and bought clothes, and cleaned my apartment, hmmm trev is supposed to be coming out today, hopefully, pam was gonna come out tomorrow and drink but i told her i already had plans to go to the bar so so ( Read more... )

well, i finallly got access to a computer and it hurts unbelievably bad to type, considering i have a needle sticking out of my hand and i have to put up with it for three days, returning to the hospital every 8 hours for another bag of liquid medication to be drained into my blood.... hoooray, damn the fuckin nurse that missed my vein the first ( Read more... )

jumble butt....

I WANNA SEEE CORPSE BRIDE....LALALALALALALALALALALALALALA YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1