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i am the villain in my own life. i wanted to be the hero for her but i am realizing the pain i cause is far greater than any smile that lays upon her face. i am simply not worth shit and it is dawning on me and has all ready dawned on her. As the evening closes i hope my lie follows suit. -
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last night was shit but now its a little better in my head. -
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i am really lost at what to do. The DNA has unravleled -
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The wind is pushing me towards the edge -
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I'm in love with a beautiful woman i can't have -
A bridge..
i think i'll take a trip there but what i will do i don't even know -
Let's see
I just finished a bunch of shit i had to finish up and i'm not really that tired. I miss nessa a lot. I mean like i still c her but we don't get to stay up on a monday talking until the sun comes up. Most of all i miss the nights when i would come over and we just laid down next to each other. At those times there was no one else in the world ( Read more... ) -
Not to good
I honestly feel like shit. I can't make a woman i love with all my heart happy and tend to just screw everyone in my family over until now some of them can't even talk to me. Is this what i wanted? Justfcation? To fuck up everything so much so hat i won't feel guilty for going. So i won't have to hink well this person needs me here i can't go. My ( Read more... ) -
Lately..
it seems i've been letting her down so much. I'm so restricted and she's the one who has to pay. I just wish i could come through for her @ least once. I feel like shit that i can't do a god damn thing or choose not to because that's easier than just a no. The stress feels like it's been burying me and i feel so god damn helpless and want to make ( Read more... )