I am a bit pissed off. I'm very tired and pissed off. I am quite worried too. I'm worried that I'm not doing my job properly at work. I am trying my very best but I still can't meet my expectations of what I should be doing at work. Doing things like staying awake all night worrying about whether I am doing a good job at work is certainly not going ( Read more... )

I just came across a photo of P- and it made me feel sad. I'm going to miss him this summer. He was a good guy. RIP.

It feels almost weird that after all the chaos of the last 3 decades that finally there is some quietness in my head. It is weird. All the struggle, all the pain is finally over. Well it was well worth waiting for. My life is good now. :)

I feel very old. I feel like I've lived a dozen lives. I've had so many mental health problems all my life and now they are finally over. I have done every mad thing that I will ever do and that period of my life is over forever. I had an eating disorder for all my teenage years, from 13 until 19 years old. Then I had a couple of years of near ( Read more... )

the weather is lovely, its very sunny. there's a real feeling of spring ( Read more... )

still here.

my life is work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep...

Happy Christmas everyone!

xxx

Jack, Mooki...love you guys, hope you have a great Christmas xxx

my mum is talking about bring me to hospital tonight. the psychiatric hospital i mean. She says she can't supervise me 24-7 to ensure my safety. Which is fair enough i suppose.
i don't feel sick enough to go to hospital, this feels a bit wrong.

where there is life, there's hope.