if only you knew what it meant to "officially" lose your best friend.
it hurts so bad. like you dont know what to do anymore.

theres something wrong with me.
its been just about a whole year since weve been playing these games and i think im afraid to admit that i lost and get over it.
why cant i get over it?
it seems like something so easy to forget about but its not. at least to me..

my goal for this year is to get as good of grades as possible cause im goin to need them. and if that means not having friends well then oh well, it will be one less thing to worry about. and besides, no one really keeps in touch with their friends when they graduate anyways. i can already tell the ones that im going to lose carrisa. kaitlin. ( Read more... )

i wanna get my tonuge pierced so bad.
:/

new diet starting tomorrow.
i decided that this year is going to be the year for me.
i wanna look hella fine for the dances and for myself.
hopefully this one will work and stick and help me.
maybe doing it with my bffl will help too.
pray for me. im gonna need it.
hahaha.
<3

best friends never work out.
i miss you tori.

i dont need my mother yelling about me sneaking out WHEN I DIDNT right after i get home from working my fucking ass off.
its stupid.
whatever.

so i guess this is what it comes to when people change.
i think i knew it was coming.
i just didnt want to believe it.
and now you've made it pretty clear.
idk whats going to happen next year. i dont even know whats going to happen tomorrow.
i guess life will go on and you will just deal with things as they come.

i dont even know what to think anymore.

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