everything thing was going so well for so long.
& now i feel like im just losing everything.
this isnt good.

your right, i dont know what i want.
i'm so confused about what i want to do.
college especially.
im so worried im going to make the wrong decision.
aaaahhhhhh.

it hurt me more then i thought it would when my mom told me she didnt care if i went to college or not.
before she said she was going to kill me if i didnt go.
and now she doesnt care?
its like saying she doesnt care about my future.
oh wellll.

why the fuck can i not get him out of my head.
everyone says i need to get over him and move on.
but i cant and idk why.

shitty.

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i still need to find a mentor.
i still need to do my shadowing.
i still need to do my 60 notecards that are due tomorrow.
along with my rough draft of my outline thats due monday that i havent even started.
i still need to find a job.
i still need money.
hahaha.
i cant wait for toris party.
i miss her so much<3

ive been really obsessed with the gym.
i hope thats not a bad thing.

i wish i was out of high school already.
and on with my life.
and college.
so i wouldnt have to deal with everyones shit.
and everyone backstabing everyone.
i hate it here.
i really do.

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