how do you tell him
he pushes too hard
when theyre hands tremble
and they smile crushed smiles
all the while quailing silently beneath him

to love him is to know him
and that he means no harm
but he is a brute, and a bully
and he pulls your pain out from the root
in a braying drunken bravado

cleaning cars
when the religious couple
aprroche, so earnest
i cannot turn them away
so with rag and polish in hand
i listen and wipe
as they spin me the song and dance
taking their card
and tucking into my shallow pocket
superstion, i will not throw it out
but i will allow it to
become lost

so i turn my face into forgivness
knowing i am what i am
and feel nothing this day
feel nothing but knowing
and i have one step to take
onto the soft green grass
and one page to turn in the story unfolding
but i have stopped to let forgiveness
touch my cheek

I want to paint tonight, but i am so excited i dont know if i can even manage it

looking out my brushes has me bouncing with anticipation

Shirr lay down her pen ( Read more... )

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its like snow in april
beautiful and fleeting
never connecting
words from lips
love to ether

I am the ant in exile

and i count the days till green rivers of hair
23

I slip on my insicurity dress
and feel it rest on my legs
brush my calves
flutter over my upper arms
my lips make bold words
that only make her wince away from me
because she is too bright
and I cannot have her closer
garish, to hide, what is so dull inside
whispers into the palm of my hand
i loved you