well today I was miserable...I'm just so lonely...I need to find me someone else...I NEED to...I'm pathetic...but the only problem is...I still believe I'm very unattractive...I was talking with Kim earlier and I said I can't talk to females very well...and Males just don't do it for me...guess I'm just destined to be alone...hmmmm well its true... ( Read more... )

sorry to everyone...I was ranting and raving...I was depressed...ignore the last post...don't worry about me...it was just a rant...sorry

well i have some thanking to do...first off I would like to thank my family for starting my plan in motion...second I'd like to thank everyone else for leaving me making it easier for me to move away...somewhere far away...and brandon you loved me the most and you hurt me the most...that night in your living room when you said and I quote you " ( Read more... )

well I'm single again...me and shae broke up for good...and now I have to go to work today...and I didn't get much rest over the weekend cause I had it off...and me and shae were fighting ALL weekend...oh well...I'll live...:) anyway looks like everyone is breaking up for some reason...maybe its just that time of year...or maybe we just haven't ( Read more... )

Hello everyone bout to go to bed then Inspiration STRUCK...I FINALLY wrote a poem again...its not the best...but hey I'll take what I can get right now...until I get my touch back...anyway I need help with a name...and No stupid remarks either...if you don't like it...Tough don't post about it...anyway here it is ( Read more... )

its amazing how by listening to one song my mood can change completely...I don't understand myself...guess I'm love sick...I don't quite understand my feelings...I suck and if I think it thats bad...I just don't fucking understand why I have these emotions...I'm unattractive, I'm "husky" (as everyone puts it to me softly), I'm fat (lot easier)... ( Read more... )

Today sucks...I don't know why I feel this shitty...I don't know what happened...one minute I'm talking to april and trying to get her to talk to me...the next shes gone and I'm feeling like shit...maybe its something I said to her...who knows...on top of this...I don't know what I want to do witht he rest of my life...Dustin wants me to go to ( Read more... )

hey everyone just got off of work...it sucks...only had one truck today though...that was good...I got cut some hours...I had overtime...april's so jealous...oh dustin's about to be jealous when he reads this...I got 3 hugs from april tonight...:) hehe :P haha...anyway I'm going now

well what should I say...ummm I got a job...lol everyone knows that...oh well I'm feeling good...but work sucks...I hate wal-mart...tomorrow I get paid...hehe...well lets see...brittany wants me to come see her and everyone up there...only one problem...I don't know the way up there...so I'm up a creek without a paddle...or a boat for that matter ( Read more... )

I wish I could think of something to type here but as always my business is spread all through out our crowd....not by me (glares at bb)...lol I really don't care....for the first time in a long time I'm depressed....and it sucks...I can't sleep...and whats worse is I can't seem to write any poems as of my last one like a year ago...big writers ( Read more... )