life lately has been a combination of great times hanging with great friends and all out confusion. i don't know what i am doing with my life. it feels like something isn't right. ever since alfred moved, shit just hit the fan. i have no clue why. work is sometimes fun as hell and sometimes it sucks major dick. i am not at all motivated for school ( Read more... )

and i couldn't feel any less about it. i have been pretty happy lately. i have been pretty fucking busy so maybe that was it. well, i am just enjoyin life right now and lettin shit just play out. fate is an incredible thing. you have no clue.

i guess everything is working. i am tryin to just be myself for once. school is just not working for me right now; so much shit to do. well, everything with jordan is going in the right direction. she's a really sweet girl and she is so different than the girl i usually date. maybe that's why it's odd to me. she's the opposite of every girl i have ( Read more... )

i don't even know what i should be saying here. life should be shitty but it's not. i am in limbo right now. i want to like jordan but i don't want to get hurt again. i don't even know if i want a realtionship right now. she is a beautiful girl who could get me back on the right path. i just don't know whether or not to even continue with this. i ( Read more... )

I keep feeling like I am not getting enough out of life right now. I keep smoking when I don't really enjoy it. I hate cigarettes but it is the only thing keeping me from blowing my own brains out. I have no real stress other than maintaining my grades. That's the worst of my worries. Other than that, I want something out of life I don't have right ( Read more... )

i don't know what changed, but life has been a lot better lately. I distanced myself from "toxic" friends. Work is much better being on the front. Even when it sucks up there, it kills frozen food/dairy. School has been good. I just wanna keep my grades up and it seems like I could do that with the way they teach you there. I think the major thing ( Read more... )

I don't know to do anymore. Only thing good right now is school. In fact, that is the only thing I care about right now. For now, work sucks. No one does shit, but me even though I take the blame for all the shit that goes wrong. It's not like I care. I don't really care about anything anymore and it sucks. I got a ps3 which I thought I would be ( Read more... )

I don't know what's going on with life. IT's a shit hole that never ends. Every time I think I did something right, shit just hits me in the face. It sucks living at my house. My job sucks. I get no respect. It sucks. I just don't know what to do anymore. I mean I really hate my mother. She lives just to make my day shit. Negativity reached a whole ( Read more... )

Stress fucking sucks. Just when I think I won't have to be working a whole department by myself, Jared calls out for who knows how long with a broken wrist. Shit is just pissing me off. Everyone is trying to tell me that I am doing my job wrong. I am tired of that shit. I have been working at the damn store way before half these fuckers got hired. ( Read more... )

Right now, life is pretty good. Just when I think things are completely going to turn to shit, something really good happens making up for the shit. Lately, I have come toa realizaation that I really need to enjoy life more than I have bee. I need to get out of the house and just relaz out in the sun and enjoy the great state of VA. I also need to ( Read more... )