I'm getting my hair lopped off. All the way. I'm going pretty short, but still longer than short. Like maybe five inches or so. Just longer than what would give me a jewfro. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. So, yeah, any suggestions ( Read more... )

First day of class. Only a few tears of fear. Stayed the night with Rebecca, so I'm cool. Quitting smoking again. Second day blues. Shit. All in one day. Oh, well, the chin's up. Let's see how classes go.

California.

So apparently, she and I were having stressful patches. Leslie and Amanda were sewing seeds of fucking doubt in my brain, well, they weren't sewing the seeds as much as pouring miracle grow on the tiny ones that exist in everyone's mind. She loves me. If I think about it for a minute, I know she does. I was getting a lot of flak from Amanda and ( Read more... )

I'm in the fucking dog house with my girlfriend. I really want it to work but no matter what I do, because I'm stressed out by my mother and the onset of school, she thinks I don't want the relationship to work but she's an amazing and usually totally accurate about how I feel. I wish I could show her how much she means to me. I love her. I miss ( Read more... )

5 weeks ago, I quit smoking. I have a girlfriend.
My GPA is a 3.325.
I have the rhythm back.
This is so cool.

So yeah, I go back east again this weekend for Miles's 20th birthday. I am sort of seeing this girl. And it's really nice. I really like her presence, and the things I like about her are kind of abstract and hard to put to words. I don't know, I'm scared to hope this will work. I mean that in a couple of ways, I don't want to hope, invest myself in ( Read more... )

In a foreign place, the saving grace was the feeling ( Read more... )

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

10 days without smoking ( Read more... )