it just doesn't seem fair.
i'm getting left behind.

i'm very confused about my life at the moment.

SB until June 22 phase one.
Than SB phase 2 for two weeks. Then back to phase one for one week. Then phase three.

Then back to more fucking up with my parents, hating myself, and working. Cool.

whenever I find someone that makes me happy, they leave. avery, courtney, mrs. satterstrom, troy, and now ben. he finally graduated and is moving to NY to follow his bestfriend/girlfriend to college. that's so awesome, i'm really happy for him. but what about me? i still need him. he makes work go by faster and he's like an older brother to me.

i will never find someone i can truley happy with.

sometimes i think it's the only way out, and the only choice.

i don't know what to say. hmm, i'll get back to you when im more enlightened.

bittersweet. i'm always at work to get money. but i never see my best friend anymore and it feels like she doesn't need me as much. i don't know. i just want summer to be here.

i hate pretending not to be heartbroken. if i see happy, it's a facsade.

last night was sooo much fun. but mill ave. at night is kinda creepy. anyways, alysha and dinah are sooo cool. i didn't think they'd like me but they do. and i love blasting rap really loud while driving on the freeway i figured out. uhh what else. oh yeah, steph is going to cali until sunday so that sucks ass. but tomorrow i work, and friday, and ( Read more... )

You are my boy and you don't even know it.
I am living out the life of a poet.
I am the jester in ancient court.
And you're the funny little frog in my throat.