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(Untitled)
Rock a bye baby on the treetop
when the wind blows
the cradle with rock
when the baugh breaks
the cradle will fall
down comes my baby
cradle and all......................
wait what baby?
where has it gone?
5 months til the big day
already dead, a life unknown -
who will be the last standing he asks
come with me he says and i follow him into the bathroom for what i thought would be a session but instead he expected more. i wasnt giving him what he wanted and he was planning to take it. all the other girls blow him all day long and i said no so he cant handle it. as i began to realize he was using force i began to fight back and then we ( Read more... ) -
the night stalker
uh woops almost made it out in time, 12 hours later but not before the mystery phone call... who is it, none other than my temporary insanity that didnt even last a week i mean who was i kidding i dropped that boy off on his own. however i did take it upon myself to cross into his territory and spend the day over at two people's house that i met ( Read more... ) -
temporary insanity
so i flipped out and had to make an emergency trip back to Del Amo, my arms dont look so good i really did beat myself up this time. i made an attempt with 26 geodons and called Prover's office as a final effort to spare my end in a massive coronary attack and was put into contact right away. no way did he trust me the next day that i was passed ( Read more... ) -
going home to the galaxy 0010110#%*?$
its easter sunday and really there's no significance. my departure from my religion occurred long ago making all the holidays seem non existent yet i had to look back to the time when this little girl got a new dress to wear to church on easter sunday every year. during that time life was conducted formally then without notice was left unattended ( Read more... ) -
ah forget it, fuck
fucking drama...its kinda funny though how i stayed up all night making something special for someone on my mp3 player only for them to reject it over the notion that he is one of my top friends on mysp and his girlfriend became hysterical. so what she already knew we were added to each others friends list what difference does it make what rank or ( Read more... ) -
give me liberty or give me death
A REUNION...with a true confidade from a long lost friendship is offering me a bit of stability while on the other hand a later encounter has left me vulnerable. some random acquaintance through a chick i met in the girls room to a tatted green eyed 6'4 jock hottie now tempting me to get my hopes up. i know better... the role i have with guys is ( Read more... ) -
a need to write
Alright here goes... its been a long ass time since my last post and during that time i was admitted to a psychiatric hospital and went through 2 rehab programs. still nothing has changed. ive been feeling guilty this last week after my mom dropped 10K on my new passat and why, i dont even deserve it. my mom believes i acheived 5mo sobriety but ( Read more... ) -
ive invited the wolf since nobody wants to hear my cry
the unconcious plays alot of stupid tricks on me that im not sure i'll ever understand. the simple fact that daniel (who hijacked my heart 4yrs ago) still appears randomly in my dreams and truthfully its upsetting to see that i havent let him go yet. now 2 clear depictions in my recent dreams uncover an unsettling fear that im suppressing inside ( Read more... ) -
no such luck
oh me, oh my! what next...things were going ok as ive managed to balance out my situation until 4days ago on mon when during my trip home from work i again come face to face with reocurring freak accidents of my life. im usually looking way ahead of everything i do cuz im very impatient but failed to see what was coming this time. in the right ( Read more... )