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[shadowblade]

   It's only been a few hours since I took my leave from mIRC temporarily, yet I've already begun to miss everybody. There's no way I'll be able to be gone for a full week, not after how wanted everybody managed to make me feel when I was trying to go. I honestly came close to shedding a tear or two. I think I made a couple people cry, though,

Comments

[ex_darklord]

I'm sorry you felt left out. If I'd known you felt that way I might have tried to bring you more into some things. You always seemed so popular though. Off in a side channel with someone, always busy.

As for an evil char. whatever happened to SB's evil twin?

[shadowblade]

Yeah, what Tam said, even though THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SECRET!

[ex_darklord]

was trying to be nice

[shadowblade]

Oh, no, I was only joking, lol. Your offer is appreciated, though. When I return, I'll be certain to keep it in mind, I promise.

[crayzeelikeafox]

He's part of SB now. And what about a darque one? I'd let you have one if you want. And you k now how evil they can be. *smiles a bit*

[shadowblade]

*thwaps for completely ruining a big secret* Bad! Baaaad! You just told half the Dagger something they weren't supposed to know. If anybody that's not in my LJ hears about this, I'll have all you're heads! *poke* And don't say you didn't know it was a secret, because I've got it logged of me telling you it is. I even checked it just now. Meanie... *sniffles*

[crayzeelikeafox]

I thought it was an IC secret! *Hides and whimpers*

[shadowblade]

*huggles* It's okay. You can make it up to me by helping me create an evil character.

[crayzeelikeafox]

...I posted a big ass long thing on here for you and it errored and didnt send. So I'm shortmesseging it now....

Dont feel guilty because your life is good. I'm proud of you because you've made something about yourself.

And Just because I say I wouldnt have accepted you in the military NOW doesnt mean I might not have back then...a woman looks at things different when its her man. You knkow? I'm not saying Oh yes I woulda or whatever, I'm not even really talking just about me...but...grah, I know what i mean. You'll find someone worthwhile. And dont you dare settle for just anyone because you're special, and your miss right is out there.

And that was the jist of it. Goddamn llive journal...

[shadowblade]

I've had an entire entry up and vanish on me after I told it to post it, so I understand.

I left for a while so I couldn't feel guilty about it.

Believe it or not, I wasn't talking about you when I mentioned that bit about love and the military. More than one woman has told me that she couldn't bring herself to be with me because of my former profession. As for you in particular...when we first met, I wasn't in the Army yet. Such thoughts hadn't even crossed my mind yet. I joined up during one of my vanishing acts. Unfortunately, I never allowed us to have a chance at being together because I was a naive kid. That's okay, though. If I had stuck around, you might not have gotten married to Josh, and that's a crime in iteself, that thought.

[soldierx]

:/

[shadowblade]

*hugs* That was the smallest comment I've ever seen, but it's still appreciated to know that you care.

[ex_darklord]

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[shadowblade]

Pop quiz! What's the shortest sentence in the english language? I am. What's the longest? I do! Take that, any married people reading this!

[phoenixsblaze]

There -is- someone out there for you man.. I felt the same way till Tam and I had gotten together. But I do agree with her.. Even the thought of me joining the military or any form of dangerous, life threatening work and she'd kill me o_O I mean.. I lucked out with the flight thing.. But racing oh no.. But she was like that before we met up. But there is someone out ther.. She may not be an equal. But even those who come close, and are worthwhile are a good match. trust me.. I settled for just anyone and she was secretly engaged to my best friend.. Ended that one right quick. But thats in the past. A fragment to be forgotten though it tries to wriggle itself back in place and fails.

[shadowblade]

Yeah, I know their's somebody out there for me. I've always believed that. It's just a matter of time until her and I meet.

[phoenixsblaze]

Precisely, and it can happen at an unexpected moment as well. *random hug* But either way you do have a lot of friends who will be here for you as much as possibl.

[shadowblade]

Yeah, and it's greatly appreciated. Somehow, I couldn't see it before I left.