*sighs lightly* Well.. Its taken me so long to come to the realization.. I need help.. I signed over my rights to my daughter for so many reasons and much I won't go into detail on. So sorry guys. I still love Tamrah with all my heart. But I do know I need to let go and move on. And I know she wants me out of her life.. I did some research on my ( Read more... )

I failed.. I've lost everything and I've failed..

Its been a little over two days now.. And my appetite has dwindled to nothing.. I feel a little tired but otherwise.. I guess I'm okay as far as some people can figure.. I feel terrible for the things I've done and I'm starting to think that maybe I'm not meant to be with anyone.. I still love her with all my heart and I'm just.. Not willing to ( Read more... )

Here I am on vacation from one job. So far no luck finding another but I'm definitely finding some prospects.. Today; I head to the unemployment office to set in some applications for jobs like Bryce and see what they have on the hot board.. I'm feeling a lot better about myself. I'm losing weight and getting my energy back, as well as my ( Read more... )

Prison gates won't open up for me ( Read more... )

Things are getting so much better.. There was an incident involving a person I no longer speak to. But when someone has the nerve to call my wife something she's not; It'll be amazing how fast you'll be dropped. And also.. If you're gonna get pissy and pitch a fit because I left when I was Rpin' with you and you don't want to grasp the reasoning ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a ot of fun and quite active! I went for a walk cause I'm wanting to start losing weight.. Mostly for my health.. Mostly cause I want to be able to chase after Maddy when she starts walking.. lol.. And because most of all. I wanna look good for my wife.. That's right! I wanna get all buff fer da wifeh ( Read more... )

Things are just starting to work out here.. I get my shtuff and I get to studyin' When everything clears I'll be going to the Academy to go into truck driving. It has multiple things riding on it.. My mother has tried three times now.. -Three- to try and get me not to go and y'know what? Not happenin' I'm still gonna go as soon as I'm cleared.

There's something going on and I don't know what it is.. I wish I knew.. but she's not wanting to talk about it.. I wish she would. I love her. I want to grow old with her.. But somethings.... I don't know.. I want to know.. I'm doing everything I can to make it right but it looks like I'm failing... I'm falling.. And I hope she can be there to ( Read more... )

My wisdom tooth as worn down enough for me to be able to eat without it trying to gash my cheek open now.. For that I'm glad. Tam and I are working a lot out but its slow going at best.. I know if I get the money up She'll be able to leave her job and go full time mom like she's wanting. I'm not comfortable with it.. Infact I'm a touch mroe uneasy ( Read more... )