All that ihave to say.
is that as for this eveing/morning
there was one moment..one lasting moment.
that i would give almost anything to have a picture of....
but the moment is gone....sadly...and so is the perfect picture...the perfect photograph...the perfect frozen second, memory, moment, of time...

so i cant seem to be able to find the ruit to my trust issues..they say that things like that start early in childhood
but i cant find the begining.
maybe when i was like..12 is still my child hood...and its ruited back to Max? and my friends that all back stabed me back in like 7th grade?
i duno...im thinking of seeking counsling on this perticular ( Read more... )

its ofitial. im sick. i couldnt sleep last night, cuz my nose was all stoped up and i couldnt even begin to breath threw it, and i cant sleep with my mouth open. and i had to use all that i am to not hypervenalate over panicing about not beeing able to breath properly.
so i stayed home. and caught up on sleep after my mom got me better medicin and ( Read more... )

danger zone, almost up.

A N G E R / W R A T H
1. With whom did you last get angry? um, Lexie? i duno
2. What is your weapon of choice? Mind games
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? do they deserve to be hit?
4. How about of the same sex? if they deserve to be hit
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? parents or a teacher?
6. What is your pet peeve ( Read more... )

<3
20 days.
<3 ( Read more... )

Some times you have to take a step back 
and curl down into yourself in the corner of your bed and ask. what pain is worth the time, 
and what should you walk away from. 
and i think i did that in my sleep last night some how.

and i know theres pain on its way to me.
and theres a good chunk of it i can probably avoid.
But ive decided to stand here and ( Read more... )

After you die...
Parallel Universe

After death, you will continue to exist as if nothing has ever happened. You will continue to be yourself, but because you are in a parallel universe, some things will be different. You may not have married the same person, you might live in a different spot, but you will be the same person underneath it all ( Read more... )

"I'm the best i've ever been. I'm the worst I've ever been. and it's beautiful. and it's terrifying"
i stole that quote from a boy named Mike.
no one who reads my journal but Casey knows him that i know of.

im sick of dealing with every angle of everything because im always stuck in the middle and beeing yelled at for every one elses actions and ( Read more... )

Ive got a crush on a boy.

and i hear hes thinkin the same thing...

it pretty much makes me smile.