Well, here it is, the biggest bitch of all. Christmas Day. And WHAT a day it is!! It's cold, it's gloomy outside, cloudy. My oldest brother is hungover, my mother is coming up with obvious and ridiculous names to call the new kitten, I've got an orange crown on my head and itching at my sunburn, and my other brother is meowing at the kitten in a ( Read more... )

My Last Serenade - Killswitch Engage

This revelation is the death birth of ignorance
Tangled in a state of suffocation
Slave to self righteousness
Damnation is on your lips

From sorrow to serenity
The truth is absolution
From sorrow to serenity, it's on your head

This is my last serenade
I feel you as you fall away
This is my last serenade
From yourself you ( Read more... )

We had the most amazing, crazy storm yesterday.. it was unlike anything I've seen before in my life. Wish I had've had a camera to take photos! It was incredible!

Dark clouds in the distance to the west of the sky grew blacker, heavier and rolled across at great speed... the sky was so dark that it seemed like nighttime inside, I had to turn on ( Read more... )

Seek me... Call me.. I'll be waiting...

Every fucking day. I wake. I realise. This alien world. I don't want to be here...

A sudden departure of all I knew... I feel a gentle despair fall upon me.. a soft, hazy sound... feeling... like snow, flakes gradually drifting from the sky and building around my feet, my shoulders.. the freeze... the subconscious decay...

Searching, always searching...

So it's the end of the first month of the year... and what a month it's been. Extremely busy, extremely hard, so many things to get through on levels of emotion, mentality and physical states.

What a day, what a day.. if you can look it in the face and hold your vomit...

It's been tough.. but here it is already. I don't know whether it's like 6 ( Read more... )

It's so hard...

I sit here, listening to a favourite band.. I still wear her ring.. I wear the last thing she gave to me, for christmas... dog tags with the engravement of our date. Something she wrote is in my pocket. All around me is things that remind me of her.

She wrote a poem for me... the tears flowed again.

Full moon tonight, you know what ( Read more... )

SO YES! A more upbeat one. I have kept myself busy the last couple of days... did a killer of a day on Thursday, worked all day, finished at 7pm (torture) and took myself to training. I think I was better for it, somehow. There was 5 of us, sweating it out in my teacher's Shed of HELL, it had to be about 40 degrees in there! I was pretty unaffected ( Read more... )

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