i hate this, i want things to be good but i am really afraid that they wont be.

things have to get better or i will hibernate until it all passes.

i am never very sleepy at night time, always during the day... i am a bat i suppose. i went to the eye doctor and got some contacts and new glasses. i havent had a pair glasses since the 7th grade, i hope they dont make me look silly ( Read more... )

it's no good to be in this way.

i never go to school on time. this morning i am not going until like... 3rd period, i am a little bit sick but... mostly i just hate school.

madrigals are getting progressivly better. :D i was super happy to have a table of dear friends show up to watch the silliest opening night of all time.

i have never cried harder than just now. how does one thing hurt so much.

i am sick all of the time.

somtimes it seems like it would just be best to pack up and leave this place, get as far away as i can, and then walk back to clear my head.

it occurs to me i am slowly poisoning my self.

didnt sleep, read instead. i hope its worth it.

and now i think it is time for me to start giving a fuck about....my life....

this world hurts my heart. it hurts alot.

everything falls apart at once, i feel completely usless because i cant help anyone.

to those close to me i love you.

i got my lisense. halloween 2006. it was a happy occurance.

basically school sucks and i hate it. the administration thinks i cut myself and am suicidal. what the fuck?