i feel so intensly over whelmingly sad. i am upset all of the time, if i am not crying i am sensitive enough to at almost every minute of the day. i am so sad. i am so so so sad. i wish i could just be better, but it seems as if i am having troubles soothing that which ails me.

and we live in a beautiful world.

this is the worst feeling i have ever experienced in my entire life. it's sort of surreal.

ironing things out...

sick and lonely sucks butt.

i pretty much despise existense.

this feeling seems to return as if it were a boomarang that i keep throwing out the window but it sneaks in the back door and whaps me across the back, i throw it again and it comes back. perhaps it is fated a certain number of times, maybe that number matches the number of my " sins " perhaps this boomarang shall never leave me and i should just ( Read more... )

fuck

fuck fuck fuck mother fuck.

i love him.

i am terribly ill, i have the empty.

i love it when buster weezy rainbow mist comes home and naps on my lap.