ahhh shiiiat.

[shaelagh]

another day.....yet another day.

I spent monday getting black out drunk with my brother...playing beer pong with kids I didn't know...and waking up....next to my brother in a sunny ass room....and him being late for work and leaving me in a house of some kid I didn't know with his friend I had just met the night before.....sooooo...I walked a mile

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[flenke]

dont worry, the bottle's a good friend of mine too :)

[ducttapepunx]

ive had a lot of friends, and i can tell you
thats the only friend thats always there for you
whether you like it or not.

good or bad, take it for what it is

[spudrick]

BUT... that friend is only there when you have money. We may not have that problem, but really... Booze only hangs out with you if you pay. Materialistic bastards. Money-grubbing jerks. Bah!!

Wiffleball tonight. Hull this weekend.

[anonymous]

It's impossible to find lasting happiness, if it's conditional to the quality of your relationships. Even the best people will let you down. You have to have to be happy, regardless of who's in your life or not in your life. Friends and lovers are just pleasant events, at best. I admire you. I hate to see you in bad condition. Please be careful with the drinking. It's so very destructive when done out of sadness.

[shaelagh]

hmmm...well thanks whoever you are...I know all of this I just can't find it in me to straighten myself out. I get little pushes here and there but then I just fall back into it again. I guess someday I will just wake up and somehw see things more clearly. As of yesterday I really did start trying....being more aware of my behaviour and why I really do self destruct. It is so much easier to self destruct and get lost for awhile then to actually sit down with yourself by yourself and figure out what your dreams and goals are....:::sigh::: Oh well. thats what life's all baout I guess.