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this is one of my defeatist days ( Read more... )

thanksgiving break is very much over, and hell has officially arrived ( Read more... )

wow, it's been about forever and a half since i've last posted ( Read more... )

making out after a fight = the best thing ever. yes/no?

a) chenchen visits in two days! this makes me unbelievably happy, considering i haven't seen her in months ( Read more... )

so we are "together" (which is slightly more than dating but definitely not a relationship), which is confusing. everything is up in the air, but i have to say, he can be a sweetheart. i was pretty ill yesterday, and he let me take over his bed with tissues, cough drops, and tea on hand. in this sense, he can be extremely boyfriend-ly; i will just ( Read more... )

so... i pretty much had an amazing valentine's day.

will tell more later.

If You Forget Me ( Read more... )

a small-giant realization that sounds awfully freudian: i have always wanted those who do not want me. because? because i have never felt fully wanted by la mère ou le père. and every time i lose at the game, i feel young again--so small. i remember: sitting at the window, waiting for my mother to pick me up from pre-school or the baby-sitter's, ( Read more... )