Today I got the best news in a long time. Suzy is coming to Orlanod for a few hours. I'm going to get to see her. I can't wait to give her a big hug and a kiss. I'm so excited I can't even think straight. And oddly enough I'm nervous. I really nervous. I don't know what to even say. I guess it's because i've been wanting this for so long. I've been ( Read more... )

it was the day i've been dreading. The thing is it wasn't as bad as I expected. Eddie came over ot pick me up about 11:30 am or so. He brought donuts and we went to the mall. Hung out and ate lunch at Subway. It was fun, then we went to his work (Hot Topic) and hung out. Talked to Angela about a few things and met his friend Rory in the smoke shop ( Read more... )

tonight sucked. the boys played terrible, i drove 8hrs home, i feel sick, it's cold and i'm in a generally bad mood.

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this seems to be the whole safe place I can write anyone of my thoughts anymore. I'm glad for it too. I don't know who reads it, I couldn't give a fuck anymore. Let everyone and no one read it. Let people talk, and let people squirm at the realization I'm not such a nice fucking guy all the time. Yeah I do hate certain people, but not without ( Read more... )

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why is it when I show up and someone is upset it's "good timing". But when I'm upset or hurt, it's never the right time?

said morners kaddish for Christi. It's hard being in the presence of God when you're mad at him/her for taking someone from you. I like a girl named Allison. I love my friends. Especially Danielle for cheering me up.

yet another day. Feels like my yesterday defines my tomorrow. i don't understand sometimes why I continue to get up in the morning. Why I continue to have faith in people? Why I continue to love and continue to hate. I don't understand much of anything. All I know is sometimes I wonder why I continue to go on. I'm sure people read this live journal ( Read more... )