It wont stop.... the ringing in my ears... all I can hear is beeeeeeeep! I suppose thats what I get for going to a goth club and dancing like mad from 9:30 to 3 directly infront of a speaker... then again the room that the dark music was in was about the size of my bedroom doubled (bigger than it sounds)... the music was great, but now I can ( Read more... )

Good morning world... how are you? Does the sun shine brightly today upon your skin, casting shadows of each perfect blade of grass upon the ground? Does the wind blow to make your trees sing, does the water purify the mind as well as the body? Do the birds sing soflty of their simple lives? Do you watch the clouds like we do? Do you think ( Read more... )

So I have been looking for work for almost five months... What is in my way? I always dress appropriately, I am very respectful and professional... I'm always on time, honest, willing... I have no schedule conflictions, no problem with working long hours... what is the deal ( Read more... )

Dawn breaks on a new day with promisses of hope for my immediate future. Perhaps today will hold the key to a job, perhaps it will hold more answers towards my growth, perhaps nothing will come of anything and today will just be as yesterday... but for now I see the light ( Read more... )

In every person's life, there comes a time to grow up. Though we may not know what that means, for it may change from every person, moment to moment, it does always share some of the same aspects. Growing up for some can be an oxymoron; some may require growing down. For me, I need a bit of both. In the end, all we have is ourselves, our hearts ( Read more... )

Today, for the first time I will make a promise that not only do I want to keep, but I must keep for the sake of myself and my future. From this point on I must not give up, I cannot stop trying at anything I do... be it college, a career, love, family, friends... I must keep my hope invested in what it starts with, and I must learn to live with ( Read more... )

I wonder, why is nothing ever good enough for me... why does nothing I do seem worth the effort any more. Ever since high school I have found that my life has changed so dramatically that I don't know how to deal with what I have for the present. It's strange... you always think of the cheerleader types to develop this kind of problem... being so ( Read more... )

Well, here we are... at just another day... with people trying to tell me what is best for me, and me not listining... as always... because I know whats best for me right? I'll just keep telling myself that... and in the end, I will fail as always... perhaps I will find something that will lead me to complacency, but until then I will remain ( Read more... )

As today starts I have hopeful wishes of what may come. I sit here and smoke my pipe, wondering if the day will bring me good news or bad. Will my car run out of gas, will I be able to pay my bills... I'm so poor right now that all I have is five-year old pipe tobacco and my computer. Food is out of the question... if I had food I would be much ( Read more... )