I have a goal in life... that my name will be remembered by those that are here long after I am gone. It causes me to shake, it causes me to hurt inside. My mind falls apart piece by piece every single day because I have no one that will support me in my efforts. I am not any smarter than anyone else I know. I am not any better at anything than ( Read more... )

Do you ever get that feeling that the people that you are friends with are only there because they pity you or for some other reason... like you're not good enough some how... I dont know what's up, but I have been getting this feeling lately... it may be nothing, but you never know... oh well.... bies everyone

This place we call school... is starting to get me down... how sad seeing as how I just got here... I'm sure that things will look up; who knows... perhaps I will find the light that I saw a few months ago... or perhaps what I saw just a week ago... I was so proud to make it here, and now I feel nothing but depression... the girl that said she ( Read more... )

So what is it with this state... first I get here and I loose most of my friends, then ig et a ticket and I cant figure out how to do traffic school... finally when I figure it out, I have no more money and apparently it has like three fees... a) to elect for it b) for the video and c) for the test itself... WTF?! where I am from you pay to elect ( Read more... )

In a few weeks I will be home.... In a few weeks I will be with my friends.... In a few weeks I could be anywhere, or be anoyone, or be gone and forgotten... Nothing is certain... take advantage of today... everything around you could be gone in a moment, and we all take it for granted... Wake up and say good morning to the world, for tomorrow ( Read more... )

Im told that I am a good person, that one day I will find someone that fits my match... that will care, that will be there, that will love me for who I am and will continue to do so... I am told that one day I will find someone capable of caring as much as I do, in the way that I do, and that perhaps one day I might even have someone fall in love ( Read more... )

Its hard to think the way I do.... to be so involved with everything in my head that I don't have time for reality any more. Time, days, nights.... they no longer exist to me... only achievement, love, and recognition. Worry just seems to be one of the guides that I chose at the beginning of my days... perhaps I should have chosen something else ( Read more... )

I'm tired of sitting and and wanting something... or needing something... I dont know what it is... my head always hurts, I dont know why... I ramble on about nothing and everything, I dont know what to do... what in the hell is wrong with me... what am I talking about... I cant even remember what the hell my point was... im going insane... jesus ( Read more... )

I woke up... went to work on 3 hours of sleep... was put on fountain again (making shakes)... I so wish that they would not put me on that position. Oh well.... I moved in with Rob.... things are going well... we dont want to kill each other, in fact we seem to be getting along quite well... Im slowly getting out of debt... I like that... knowing ( Read more... )

What in this world is worth living for? It's an age old question that makes even the most knowledgable person think more than they would like. We think we know what we like, but when we get what we want then we want something else. As soon as we get that we find another thing, then another, and another that strikes our fancy. In the end, all ( Read more... )