I hate myself because a guy who I don't even know that well isn't with me. I can't help it. I hate myself for not being good enough for him. I rarely like guys; most of the time I just settle for the ones who like me. I really really like this one. I really deserve to have a guy who I am crazy about. I am too young to be settling for just

After four days and two small binges, the hip bones are slowly making a come back.

What I lack naturally, I will make up for in discipline.

I am afraid I could be with child. If I am, I will kill myself. I will kill myself. I will not be another teen statistic. I have done everything right up until my one minute mistake. I will not let a one minute fuck wreck my life. I am a good person. I am a good girl. I pray that I am not in trouble. I have never wanted my period so bad in ( Read more... )

My new obsession is weight loss and excercise.

For once in my life, I feel like I have a goal that is not poisoned by someone else's opinion. I want to be thin and fit. I want to excercise. Not because of a guy, friend, mom, or anyone but me. Todaay all I want is to see my body change.

Work
excercise
take care of self

I quit my job to be alone with my reocurring eating disorder.

I am officially alone and eventhough I had other plans for this summer like praying everyday, working on self improvement, and making a shit load of cash, I am doing all three things without even trying ( Read more... )

My mother is dissapointed in me ( Read more... )

I am an idiot.

The Turk is gone out of my life after five years of internet chat and eight months of the telephone. He wouldn't sleep with me even when I offered so I get to remain a virgin for one more week. He is pissed at me because of my "Behavior" which is unsual for me because I am a very classy lady. For some reason, I didn't hold back with him and told ( Read more... )

I am in a hotel room with a man I met online when I was 13 years old. We graduated from chatting to the telephone eight months ago. I must admit that I am dissapointed by his looks and everything. I am here anyways about to go to a friend's grad party. I hope it is fun. Between u and me computer ; never will he see us again.