One Million Things on My Mind and Not What I should be Thinking About

There is a new girl at my job who is a lesbian. I liked her right away has a friend. Our personalities clicked and I feel like I could say anything to her. I didn't try to be something I am not with her and I am not afraid of her judging me either. Maybe that is because she is gay and I know she knows what it is like to be judged. Yesterday, ( Read more... )

For starters I am very nerves about college. I am very worried about it because I have had two horrible experiences in school. This time I want to enjoy myself and to make lots of friends. People say stop worrying about it and that you will get the experience that you want to have. This is easy for kids. I have never been an extrovert. I am ( Read more... )

This is the most confusing time in my life. I don't know what I want or what I need. What I think I need is probably not what I really need. All I can do is restrict or fast. I gained a few extra pounds aftre doing so well, and I don't see why that happened. I was doing so well and not eating more then usual.

I think I might be depressed. All I do is want to stay home and I cry all night long. I didn't know I was so sad until Sean came in the store. Maybe he was what I needed to realize that I have some serious issues that I need to tangle out.

Late at night with no one in sight ( Read more... )

God has never failed me yet. I may not get everything I ask for when I ask for it, but he always seems to give me what I ask when the time is right. I usually live and learn, and I get his points right away. Therefore, I have done my part, and now I must just keep the faith because those who trust in the lord always renew their strength ( Read more... )

I am over everything and no longer care about what happened to me last week or last year or even yesterday. Today is a new day and I must stay focused on my goal which is going to take up all of my time and energy. I am prone to get stuck in the past and the future never seems to go my way. I am over it. I'm moving on.

I am nervous eventhough I have brought all of my troubles all to myself. When I am sad or depressed, I do two things. I either eat too much or not eat at all. I did a little of both this week and I have probably gained all my weight back that I lost. Tomorrow I will be WAY better then I have been. He came into my work to buy coffee and turned ( Read more... )

It feels so bad. Everything feels so bad. When will it get better? I miss a man who I don't know that well. Eventhough I am young, I fear that wanting men I can't ever have will become a pattern that will last until death. I miss everyone.