last week was the week from hell. i b/p almost every day last week and didn't really accomplish anything in terms of school work. basically a complete write off. it's now monday morning and i am planning on getting it back on track. i have less than a month before x-mas and i need to lose about 7-10 pounds in that time. totally doable. gotta get to ( Read more... )

i feel like shit. no motivation. no strength. i'm weak. totally weak. and i am so screwed. not only with my eating but with school. why do i continue to fuck around when i know that i have so much on the line? i hate everthing right now and just want to curl up until it all goes away. too bad i'm the only person who can make that happen...

eating has been great so far today. actually, this weekend has been one of the best i have had in a long time. i have been eating healthy food, probably more that ideal, but since i usually find the weekends are a binging disaster, this is a MAJOR improvement. and it's payed off. went to the gym today and when i weighed myself after my workout i ( Read more... )

ughh, it's sunday and here i am at school doing school work (well not at this very moment, but i am really, i swear!) why does school have to suck so much? why can't i concentrate at home? i wish i could sit at home all comfy in my own place and get a lot of work done like i do when i am here or even at a coffee shop. yesterday i went to starbucks ( Read more... )

ahh fateful friday is upon us again. i am so happy to be ending this week...and so unhappy about how much work i have to do this weekend! the next 2 and a half weeks (until december 5th) are going to be hell on earth for me, but there isn't much i can do about it except push through, make the best of it and try not to go crazy. i have to be good to ( Read more... )

just lost to myself right now. not sure what i'm doing anymore or why i'm doing it. why am i here all day when i need to be working? why do i read over these posts again and again...making things worse and not better for myself? how will i ever realize my dreams and goals (not the ED goals, but my real life goals with respect to school and my work ( Read more... )

just a quick one for now. at work and it's ok because friday is a half day for me this month (only because i have so much school work i should be doing). finishing in less than an hour and then off to the gym for a spinning class. after that home to work on my essay. food is ok...breakfast- 1 egg, 1 tomato slice, 2 soy toast (200cals) lunch will be ( Read more... )

about to go to sleep. had a pretty good night. food has been decent for my standards and feel positive for tomorrow. have dinner with my cousin at a thai restaurant that i love so i'm going to try and eat very little the rest of the day but enough so thati can go to the gym at noon and not feel like i'm going to faint (probably an apple and some ( Read more... )

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