and so it goes

[shanaeden]

I've been depressed. I've felt boring, been boring, and mostly just tried to get through every day. I finally called my psychiatrist (after what is about a month and a half of at least being exhausted tired, but I didn't realize was worsening depression until a couple weeks ago--it's weird how that can work) and she had me start taking an

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[h_thur]

Congrats for getting on the board! Way to go!!!

I'm on Lexapro and Lamictal. I can see a drastic difference since I've been back on both of them. The Lamictal is a pain at first because it takes a long long time to get up to a therapeutic dose. It's taken me 4 weeks to get to 100 mg. But I feel so much better. I don't have to drag myself out of bed each morning after 9 or 10 hours of sleep. I can actually get 7 or 8 now and feel good the next day. Amazing. Simply amazing. I wish you good luck with the new drugs.

[shanaeden]

That's good to hear about your med combination. I'm really averse to antidepressants which is why I was hoping to do maybe lamictal and risperdal, or lamictal alone or something like that. But this doctor has been very good about meds, so I'll follow her lead as long as my condition doesn't worsen it what seems to be a med related way. And I'm really glad you're doing better overall than you were!

[buttercup_99]

Yay for you! I think it will be great getting you on the board. It will definately give them a good perspecive coming from your side of things.

Good luck again with the weaning. Hang in there I know it's hard.

[shanaeden]

You made me grin when I read your comment. I know I've written about a thousand times that I'm weaning. First I went to 2 times a day, then I went back on that, then I went back to 2 again, and kept saying wishy washy things all the while. But that's because it really is something hard to do! I'm glad you understand. I think I'm finally emotionally ready, but yesterday I got so totally engorged I had to BF earlier in the day for her 1 feeding than I intended. I hope she and my breasts are ready at the end of this week.

[promesasdebella]

*hugs* to you!!! I'm so glad you realized that it was a worsening depression before it got too late. You're good. You're strong. You will survive and be happy (even if for only a little while in between spells). I'm discovering that the in between times are worth sticking it out for!!!

[shanaeden]

Thank you so much! I'm definitely sticking it out because I have a lot of good in my life.

[l10nx]

Yes you do and its awesome that you know that! As far as the meds go, journal anything good or bad that happens in a notebook. If you get too many negatives close together call your doc and you even bring the journal with you when you go. This might be anal but I know meds can have the harsh negative effects sometimes and you want to stay on top of the awareness curve. When I journal my health issues (diet, exercise, how much weight I have lost, what my blood sugar is) I can sometimes see how a miscalculation in any one category can have really negative responses in my health.

Oh by the way, I weight less than 150 lbs now and I am in a 30 inch waiste. LOL. Any smaller and I have to go to boys! The lack of a pancreas causes me to not absorb much from the food I eat. I am going to add some Ensure meal replacement shakes in between meals to increase my caloric intake. And I also hope I am able to digest liquids better than I am doing on the solid foods.

[shanaeden]

I use my bipolar filter on here to journal a lot of what goes on with my meds and moods, plus I keep a mood chart on paper (er, most of the time). I've not been the best about calling the doctor, until I get into a situation I really really can't stand, because I feel like she doesn't want to hear from me until I am in that really bad place. Which is probably not true, but you know, that's just how I feel. What I really need to be doing is exercising, but I've been so tired lately I haven't been doing that.

I can't believe you've gotten so tiny! Now actually, I didn't ever see you when you got a lot of weight on you because I was having my own problems and not really leaving the house, but still, a 30 inch waist. Wow! I'm so glad you're on top of your health situation. It was scary to me all the times you just didn't really know where your body was going next, and I'm sure scary to you too.

have not talked to you in a while

[katrflip]

hey just wanted to touch bases with you guys. Jamie and I are very busy right now. We are all just about settled in our new place. I can't wait for you guys to come see it. We go on saturday for our 3d ultrasound and we will have pictures to post to the internet for all to see. well i am in the middle of class and have a quiz. talk to you all later.
hugs and kisses,
jamie, kathy, katie, and baby to be

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[shanaeden]

Hey there! Glad to hear from you. I'm glad the move went ok. I'd love to come see it. I'm sure we'll be there around Thanksgiving like always. It's too bad we don't live closer! I hope your quiz went well :)

*hugs to you all*

[shanaeden]

Thanks :) It's nice to hear from you. I'm trying to get out of this hole.